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ordinaryotaku
Rotting collegecel. Women hate me for existing.
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Happens to me a lot. My gaming mouse was my most recent victim of my sperging because it wouldn't fucking work in the first place, so I ripped it out of my laptop's USB port and violently chucked it against the wall. It was already on its last leg, as it was five years old and saw use daily for hours on end, and I was planning to buy a new one within the next couple days anyways.
But I noticed that though I am mostly calm, certain things can set me off real easily.
Last year, when I was watching a hookup culture documentary that someone posted on here, there was a part within the halfway mark that was so brutal that I just completely lost my fucking shit. Ripped out my monitor and threw it against my dorm wall, threw my phone against the frame of my bed, and then got my plug in fan and threw it against my door, and I just about stopped myself from making a hole in the wall, but then I started scratching my own face in anger until I was bleeding. Also, went to eat dinner 20 minutes later and nearly took it out on a random foid.
I don't know why I do this stuff sometimes, because like again, I'm usually calm, and I was never like this before. I guess this is what happens when you're socially ostracized and excluded from everything for nearly a decade.
But I noticed that though I am mostly calm, certain things can set me off real easily.
Last year, when I was watching a hookup culture documentary that someone posted on here, there was a part within the halfway mark that was so brutal that I just completely lost my fucking shit. Ripped out my monitor and threw it against my dorm wall, threw my phone against the frame of my bed, and then got my plug in fan and threw it against my door, and I just about stopped myself from making a hole in the wall, but then I started scratching my own face in anger until I was bleeding. Also, went to eat dinner 20 minutes later and nearly took it out on a random foid.
I don't know why I do this stuff sometimes, because like again, I'm usually calm, and I was never like this before. I guess this is what happens when you're socially ostracized and excluded from everything for nearly a decade.
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