Deleted member 7448
Name is Abdu, live in Laos, born on 24.08.1992.
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I've tried to quit this forum several times but I can't, it's like I'm addicted.
It's pretty much the most social interaction I get. The most I've ever gotten in my life tbh. I guess I'm hooked on the notifications too, seeing that little red number is weirdly addictive.
But at the same time, I realize that it's a waste of time and it just constantly reminds my brain of my failures and many fuck-ups in life. It's not like my brain wouldn't do this on its own, I am full of anxiety about many different things. And it's not like it's the forum's fault, pretty much everything else in life also reminds me of those things. But I'm too addicted to it and to the feeling of being unburdened I guess. It's fake gratification, my life isn't improving and yet by communicating to pixel people over the internet my brain tricks itself into releasing chemicals of relief, while irl nothing has changed.
It's pretty much the most social interaction I get. The most I've ever gotten in my life tbh. I guess I'm hooked on the notifications too, seeing that little red number is weirdly addictive.
But at the same time, I realize that it's a waste of time and it just constantly reminds my brain of my failures and many fuck-ups in life. It's not like my brain wouldn't do this on its own, I am full of anxiety about many different things. And it's not like it's the forum's fault, pretty much everything else in life also reminds me of those things. But I'm too addicted to it and to the feeling of being unburdened I guess. It's fake gratification, my life isn't improving and yet by communicating to pixel people over the internet my brain tricks itself into releasing chemicals of relief, while irl nothing has changed.