Deleted member 5089
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I knew this guy from back then, he was a bullied loner, always talked about his rage toward high school friends and how they ruined his life. He even talked about revenge. That was 10 years ago, we were both outcasts, gamers and bullied loners. In 2010 I even had to stop him from committing suicide, he was that suicidal, so we always talked about it online. Anyways, we went to same college, but we somehow lost contact. There was this forum where we were both members. Around 2012 I noticed he wrote about seeking friends and taking drugs, he even said he would take heroin if it was offered to him. That was unthinkable to me and it shocked me, I was very low inhib back then, and I regret it now. He was also heavily into metal so he seeked friends who were also metal-heads.
Now, ten years later, I searched his facebook profile and it shocked me to see he has a steady girlfriend and social life. She is normal looking.
I seriously want to kill myself, while I was low-inhib and worked hard and rotted in my room, he took drugs and did all those fun things. And ascended, yes, he fucking ascended. This is the biggest suifuel to me... I just feel so alone and lost. Why did I have to be like this?
Now, ten years later, I searched his facebook profile and it shocked me to see he has a steady girlfriend and social life. She is normal looking.
I seriously want to kill myself, while I was low-inhib and worked hard and rotted in my room, he took drugs and did all those fun things. And ascended, yes, he fucking ascended. This is the biggest suifuel to me... I just feel so alone and lost. Why did I have to be like this?