I woke up at 6 am , then went to sleep again
woke up at 7 am , 8 am , 9 am , 10 am , 11 am to do just the same again
( i have multiple alarms set , cause i enjoy the feeling of falling asleep ,
so i want to fall asleep as often as possible , it feels like letting go of my worries )
finally woke up at 12 in my dirty shithole appartment , then realized that i had almost no food left ,
so i fried chickpeas from a can and cashews and topped it with parmesan , and it tasted suprisingly good , gotta remember that one as a snack .
Also ate 2 eggs .
took the first sip of the day from some cheap offbrand energy drink and then i walked to work ( without showering ofc ) .
Did the Virgin walk , staring at my feet with hunched over shoulders .
while walking to work ( 35 minute walk ) , i thought about suicide two times .
proceeded to work for 11 hours , with 3 x 5 minute smoke breaks in between .
i was treated like shit by my boss , but my coworkers at least ignored me .
it seems like my boss has some kind of personal agenda against me ,
i feel like he wants me to quit so he bullies me ,
cause its easier for him if i quit from my own initiative ( he has to pay more if he fires me ) .
I lived up to my name , cause like Jack in the movie i just kept my head down and didnt fire back against his insults ,
like a good little slave i just said yes and kept working .
Tyler would have just quit on the spot .
I think his plan is working tho , cause my desire to just call him a son of a bitch and walk out
is growing with each passing day .
If i do that i will be left with no money and rent to pay but i guess it would be worth it to finally stand up for myself ,
at least once in my shitty life .
I thin that would be worth more than money .
i just waited it out until it was over , like every day .
I wish i could become a NEET .
anyway , when i was walking home ,
i saw a car driving by with flowers on it '' just married '' and i felt so surreal .
Could u even imagine getting married ?
Like the hypothetical scenario of finding some 2/10 girl that would be willing to let u betabuxx her JFL ... sad clown moment
And those people always have like 100 guests or more at their fucking wedding ,
fuck .. i would have like 3 people at my wedding , at most .
Imagine having 100 fucking friends
Imagine getting married
Imagine celebrating your birthday and getting presents XDDD
Imagine people congratulating you and telling you they love you
Imagine truly living and not just waiting around to die
Imagine
Incel
anyway thats it now im sitting here comfy in front of the screen
my only friend
woke up at 7 am , 8 am , 9 am , 10 am , 11 am to do just the same again
( i have multiple alarms set , cause i enjoy the feeling of falling asleep ,
so i want to fall asleep as often as possible , it feels like letting go of my worries )
finally woke up at 12 in my dirty shithole appartment , then realized that i had almost no food left ,
so i fried chickpeas from a can and cashews and topped it with parmesan , and it tasted suprisingly good , gotta remember that one as a snack .
Also ate 2 eggs .
took the first sip of the day from some cheap offbrand energy drink and then i walked to work ( without showering ofc ) .
Did the Virgin walk , staring at my feet with hunched over shoulders .
while walking to work ( 35 minute walk ) , i thought about suicide two times .
proceeded to work for 11 hours , with 3 x 5 minute smoke breaks in between .
i was treated like shit by my boss , but my coworkers at least ignored me .
it seems like my boss has some kind of personal agenda against me ,
i feel like he wants me to quit so he bullies me ,
cause its easier for him if i quit from my own initiative ( he has to pay more if he fires me ) .
I lived up to my name , cause like Jack in the movie i just kept my head down and didnt fire back against his insults ,
like a good little slave i just said yes and kept working .
Tyler would have just quit on the spot .
I think his plan is working tho , cause my desire to just call him a son of a bitch and walk out
is growing with each passing day .
If i do that i will be left with no money and rent to pay but i guess it would be worth it to finally stand up for myself ,
at least once in my shitty life .
I thin that would be worth more than money .
i just waited it out until it was over , like every day .
I wish i could become a NEET .
anyway , when i was walking home ,
i saw a car driving by with flowers on it '' just married '' and i felt so surreal .
Could u even imagine getting married ?
Like the hypothetical scenario of finding some 2/10 girl that would be willing to let u betabuxx her JFL ... sad clown moment
And those people always have like 100 guests or more at their fucking wedding ,
fuck .. i would have like 3 people at my wedding , at most .
Imagine having 100 fucking friends
Imagine getting married
Imagine celebrating your birthday and getting presents XDDD
Imagine people congratulating you and telling you they love you
Imagine truly living and not just waiting around to die
Imagine
Incel
anyway thats it now im sitting here comfy in front of the screen
my only friend
