After the ONLY crush i had that lasted from 11 to 14 (without never actually realizing and doing anything with that foid obv) i really went into a weird mental state: i've been incapable of feeling any kind of "traditional" love toward a foid. Maybe it was them constantly ignoring me or bullying me. Maybe it was noticing how even younger foids coming at my school didn't give half a shit about me (i was pro feminist at that time but still somehow figured out how hypergamy works KEK) but i really never experienced the feeling of falling in love with a foid again. NEVER. I felt attracted to them, sexually and that was it. After my brutal blackpill with a "mra" girl jocking about small dicks (Yes. It fucking happened and i actually threw up cause of the horrible feeling i had. But this will be for another thread) i went even more into this state. I feel attraction toward foids, i NEED to be validated in terms of looks but i really never felt something special toward any of them (never felt someone was "the one").
Does someone experience the same? I'm wondering if that could be correlated with non NT or with massive fetish porn i escaped to since my early adolescence to cope with the absolute uninterest foids had in me
Does someone experience the same? I'm wondering if that could be correlated with non NT or with massive fetish porn i escaped to since my early adolescence to cope with the absolute uninterest foids had in me
