Joelossus
high T af, and a psychopath
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- Joined
- Mar 25, 2019
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I don't fucking know, there doesn't seems to be a reason for trying anymore.
I know that what i really want in a female doen't exists, and that coping by trying to make myself believe that it does, just makes me feel even worse.
Everything i ever wanted in a female, is just a projection of my own inner desires, nothing more than that.
It doesn't actually exists.
Why keep fighting a losing battle, if the price doesn't even interests you?
I don't care about female validation anymore, since i realized that all the traits females desire in a male, are nothing more but god givin abilities, that were impossible for me to obtain.
The only reson why i still care, are my sexual urges which just don't seem to dissapear, no matter how hard i try, to get rid of them.
My life was so peacefull until i started to develope sexual desires.
Form that point on, life transformed, from a rather joyfull and comfy ride, into a competition based nightmare.
A competitive nightmare, that i was destined to lose.
It's not just the fact that i'm incapable of getting sex, i suck at every other aspect of life aswell.
There just isn't anything i'm good at, i tried to teach myself how to draw, how to play the guitar/piano, how to play soccer, how to be good at competitive video games, but i failed at everything.
Hell i can't even properly wtite a english text like this, without people complaining about my punctation, or other grammatical mistakes i tend to make.
I'm a fucking loser, and now it turns out that the one thing that used to keep me going only seems to exist withing my imagination.
Perhaps i should just stay there, and leave the physically world to the more fortunate people.
I know that what i really want in a female doen't exists, and that coping by trying to make myself believe that it does, just makes me feel even worse.
Everything i ever wanted in a female, is just a projection of my own inner desires, nothing more than that.
It doesn't actually exists.
Why keep fighting a losing battle, if the price doesn't even interests you?
I don't care about female validation anymore, since i realized that all the traits females desire in a male, are nothing more but god givin abilities, that were impossible for me to obtain.
The only reson why i still care, are my sexual urges which just don't seem to dissapear, no matter how hard i try, to get rid of them.
My life was so peacefull until i started to develope sexual desires.
Form that point on, life transformed, from a rather joyfull and comfy ride, into a competition based nightmare.
A competitive nightmare, that i was destined to lose.
It's not just the fact that i'm incapable of getting sex, i suck at every other aspect of life aswell.
There just isn't anything i'm good at, i tried to teach myself how to draw, how to play the guitar/piano, how to play soccer, how to be good at competitive video games, but i failed at everything.
Hell i can't even properly wtite a english text like this, without people complaining about my punctation, or other grammatical mistakes i tend to make.
I'm a fucking loser, and now it turns out that the one thing that used to keep me going only seems to exist withing my imagination.
Perhaps i should just stay there, and leave the physically world to the more fortunate people.
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