I'm tired of being lonely and depressed. I'm tired of the constant lack of success in life, and of life itself. I'm tired of being treated like subhuman trash by women. Honestly, I'm tired of being hateful and angry all the time. I have so much anger and hatred within me that's just bubbling away. My life was over the moment I exited the womb as my fate was written in my genes. But I can't help but ponder why is it that I was cursed with such a fate. Was I a violent criminal in a past life? Did I lose in a game that determined the success of this life? It just makes no sense to me. The most suifuel thing is seeing your past classmates start posting about their marriages, girlfriends, and life, while you have nothing at all. They spent their late teens and young adult years enjoying life and steadily progressing along, and meanwhile I was horribly stuck, forever scarred and broken by loneliness and a lack of companionship. Never had anyone that cared about me, at all. And the most brutal thing is that even if some blessed miracle where to happen where I did somehow manage to score a girlfriend, I would still not be able to enjoy or appreciate this existence nor would it fix me at all because I am mentally destroyed beyond repair at this point. My mind has just gave up in the face of the constant torment that is inceldom and my shitty existence.
