ordinaryotaku
Rotting collegecel. Women hate me for existing.
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And no, this isn't a cope that "I have found le epic hobby that will make me stop caring about foids and do something with myself!!!!!11"
I had an epiphany.
The hatred I harbor for 14-32 year old foids is so strong that my anger towards them overwhelms every other emotion I can possibly have towards them. More importantly, I realized that the only emotion I'd ever be able to attach to these foids if I ever got them besides hatred is lust, and I do not like lust, and my brain doesn't like the idea of it either. The illusion of love died when the uprising of technology and social media started. I'm a realist. I realized that love no longer exists, and that is an emotion that I would like to feel towards them. If I can't love foids, and if I don't want to lust for foids, then what's the point?
Foids themselves only feel similar emotions, but towards Chads. Love still doesn't exist with them unless Chad makes it happen, and you know how rare that is. They just want to ride the Chad Cock Express until they hit the wall, but even then, they'll STILL have sex, but far less -- water is wet.
And I'd realized I myself would be repulsed if I had sex with any other woman who isn't a virgin. The act of sex itself is becoming more and more repulsing towards me as it is no longer an expression of love, but an expression of serial monogamy and pure lust; which are some ultra common foid traits that shows everything wrong with the world today.
I no longer give a shit.
I now sometimes go a week without showers (compared to every day when I tried for foids), I no longer lift, and now I feel like a complete retard thinking I'd be able to get any of these whores back when I took every piece of normie advice I saw and applied it. Ngl, I have redpill thoughts on the daily (not about "lifting and confidence will get me sex" but more about personal improvement helping out life), but I'd feel more compelled to do redpilled shit if I got involved in something like an organized crime syndicate such as the mafia, because I'd be able to use strength and shit for my own advantage, but those barely exist anymore. It would be ultimately pointless to do that redpill shit because it literally won't help me at all, and that is one of the reasons I quit the gym, is because it's pointless.
Doing shit for yourself doesn't matter if #1: you don't get validation and #2: you don't ever get to use it. I'm high-T and an aspie, I would've loved to beat the shit out of people back when I lifted, but I lived in a middle/upper middle class area, where fights were only commonplace among the social castes with stupid ass druggies and popular kids. Kinda want to get jacked again just to fuck with foids and beat up their white knights when the time comes, along with the ANTIFA cucks, but where I live, they aren't here.
I am so blackpilled to the point where this shit no longer matters. I just want to witness the social justice shitshow end with fire.
I had an epiphany.
The hatred I harbor for 14-32 year old foids is so strong that my anger towards them overwhelms every other emotion I can possibly have towards them. More importantly, I realized that the only emotion I'd ever be able to attach to these foids if I ever got them besides hatred is lust, and I do not like lust, and my brain doesn't like the idea of it either. The illusion of love died when the uprising of technology and social media started. I'm a realist. I realized that love no longer exists, and that is an emotion that I would like to feel towards them. If I can't love foids, and if I don't want to lust for foids, then what's the point?
Foids themselves only feel similar emotions, but towards Chads. Love still doesn't exist with them unless Chad makes it happen, and you know how rare that is. They just want to ride the Chad Cock Express until they hit the wall, but even then, they'll STILL have sex, but far less -- water is wet.
And I'd realized I myself would be repulsed if I had sex with any other woman who isn't a virgin. The act of sex itself is becoming more and more repulsing towards me as it is no longer an expression of love, but an expression of serial monogamy and pure lust; which are some ultra common foid traits that shows everything wrong with the world today.
I no longer give a shit.
I now sometimes go a week without showers (compared to every day when I tried for foids), I no longer lift, and now I feel like a complete retard thinking I'd be able to get any of these whores back when I took every piece of normie advice I saw and applied it. Ngl, I have redpill thoughts on the daily (not about "lifting and confidence will get me sex" but more about personal improvement helping out life), but I'd feel more compelled to do redpilled shit if I got involved in something like an organized crime syndicate such as the mafia, because I'd be able to use strength and shit for my own advantage, but those barely exist anymore. It would be ultimately pointless to do that redpill shit because it literally won't help me at all, and that is one of the reasons I quit the gym, is because it's pointless.
Doing shit for yourself doesn't matter if #1: you don't get validation and #2: you don't ever get to use it. I'm high-T and an aspie, I would've loved to beat the shit out of people back when I lifted, but I lived in a middle/upper middle class area, where fights were only commonplace among the social castes with stupid ass druggies and popular kids. Kinda want to get jacked again just to fuck with foids and beat up their white knights when the time comes, along with the ANTIFA cucks, but where I live, they aren't here.
I am so blackpilled to the point where this shit no longer matters. I just want to witness the social justice shitshow end with fire.