I'm so very tired, It's not the kind of tired you sleep away and it's not kind of tired you can rest away. No I'm just tired of living this life, I don't want to die because actually i want to live, but what I'm doing right now is not living. I'm like a corpse resurrected by a necromancer my body drained of all it's energy yet forced to shamble on. Everyday i wake up wishing i could go back to sleep, to dream instead of being here. And the worst is i just don't see a pathway out, sure i can get luckily and strike virtual gold and become rich but will that fix my mind? my mind that has been damaged by this forced isolation, I know all to well how ineffective therapy is and the pills are even worse because of the negative effects that come with them.
I'm so very tired, of being alone, all by myself. No girlfriend no real friends nothing but family, if it wasn't for my mother I'd already be dead. She is only one who cares but she is so powerless to help me. She can't make people be my friends and she definitely cannot make women love me. I'm all alone in my struggles to improve, sure i can workout, sure i can diet, sure can i job search, sure i can make money through my talent in predictions gambling. but it's so very hard to do all this alone. Waking up everyday with no energy and no willpower because society has sucked it right out of me.
I'm so very tired of political bullshit, I'm so very tired of people who care so much about the affairs of foreign countries while people like me their own neighbors are suffering from an epidemic caused by the failure of our modern society, I'm tired of these faggots being smug and thinking they smartest humans alive, I'm tired of every faggot in the world being a LOW IQ activist for some cause despite having no understanding of literally fucking anything, It's all about talking people or events, ideas are never discussed because all of dumb retards reactionaries who are either seething about the Orange man and his autistic Genghis Khan wannabe billionaire friend or some socialist faggot who happens to be popular within leftwing circles.
I'm so very tired of modern culture, I'm tired of how sexualized everything is, I'm tired of seeing whores everywhere promoting there degeneracy in every circle of internet for a quick buck, I'm tired of lack of respect many zoomerfags have for literally anyone. I'm tired of ebonic speak and brainrot speak infesting the entirety of the internet. I'm tired of how insincere all of these people are, i hate that how they demonized sincerity, i hate how they hide behind hundreds upon hundreds of layers of irony because they can't be sincere. I'm tired of politicians further destroying our society by letting millions of immigrants replace us because they can't be fucking bothered to actually solve the problems that make us unproductive
I'm so very tired of the hypocrisy, the constant hypocrisy of normalfags, how they cannot stop talking about sex because their lives revolve around it so much that it's a status symbol to be a sexhaver and then they turn around and chastise us for even wanting sex, I hate how the glorify violence against people they dislike but when we do it's a bad thing. I'm tired of these fuckers defending trannies every single fucking day despite the fact that they are way more violent then us, these trannies faggots get all the support from these big companies and politicians but no a single person dares to defend not even just incels but the lonely men of our society.
I'm so very tired of my own mind working against me, every single time I start to even feel miniscule of happenis my own mind decides to flood me with endless waves of OCD and depression, constant reminders of how much a failure i am, constant reminders of how it will likely all end with me dead, in prison or and old man all alone forever alone, I hate how my OCD makes it so a focus way too much on minor details that shouldn't matter at all to the point of being extremely bothered by stuff that shouldn't bother anyone
I'm so very tired of being unable to change anything, an rational man living my life would want to change it. but i'm constantly unable. I can't find a job because i made the one mistake of not working when i was 16 and now the my country is being overrun by jeets with more experience working minimum wage jobs then i have so now every minimum wage job requires 2 years of experience, I did lose some weight went from 180 to 165, i've gained muscle but what does this change for me? i'm still putridly ugly woman want absolutely nothing to do with me, i can't change the fact that i'm austistic i can try to manage my OCD but it's just gets too powerful alot of the times, i tried several different mind altering drugs but nothing worked and most of the times it made things worse, I've tried therapy, i've tired consuelling nothing fucking wrongs, I tried dating apps, i tried approaching people in person, i tried joining clubs there is something so fundamentally different about me that i cannot connect with normal people. Nothing changes i'm tired of it, maybe if i just wait another 10 fucking years i'll finally make it but i'm just fucking so tired of waiting for change and nothing happening.
I'm just so very tired, all of this every single day. It's a pain i would wish on no-one not even ITfags not even the most scummy politicians. This is one of the worst fates that a person can be doomed to, the only thing worse is being locked up in some psychos homemade torture chamber or being in prison with a bunkmate that rapes you every night. Being physically disabled would only be worse if it ended up leading to this kind of life, otherwise i'd rather be physically disabled but have a girlfriend who actually loved me. I don't wanna die, i don't wanna die, i don't wanna die but i don't wanna live like this for the rest of my life either.
I'm so very tired, of being alone, all by myself. No girlfriend no real friends nothing but family, if it wasn't for my mother I'd already be dead. She is only one who cares but she is so powerless to help me. She can't make people be my friends and she definitely cannot make women love me. I'm all alone in my struggles to improve, sure i can workout, sure i can diet, sure can i job search, sure i can make money through my talent in predictions gambling. but it's so very hard to do all this alone. Waking up everyday with no energy and no willpower because society has sucked it right out of me.
I'm so very tired of political bullshit, I'm so very tired of people who care so much about the affairs of foreign countries while people like me their own neighbors are suffering from an epidemic caused by the failure of our modern society, I'm tired of these faggots being smug and thinking they smartest humans alive, I'm tired of every faggot in the world being a LOW IQ activist for some cause despite having no understanding of literally fucking anything, It's all about talking people or events, ideas are never discussed because all of dumb retards reactionaries who are either seething about the Orange man and his autistic Genghis Khan wannabe billionaire friend or some socialist faggot who happens to be popular within leftwing circles.
I'm so very tired of modern culture, I'm tired of how sexualized everything is, I'm tired of seeing whores everywhere promoting there degeneracy in every circle of internet for a quick buck, I'm tired of lack of respect many zoomerfags have for literally anyone. I'm tired of ebonic speak and brainrot speak infesting the entirety of the internet. I'm tired of how insincere all of these people are, i hate that how they demonized sincerity, i hate how they hide behind hundreds upon hundreds of layers of irony because they can't be sincere. I'm tired of politicians further destroying our society by letting millions of immigrants replace us because they can't be fucking bothered to actually solve the problems that make us unproductive
I'm so very tired of the hypocrisy, the constant hypocrisy of normalfags, how they cannot stop talking about sex because their lives revolve around it so much that it's a status symbol to be a sexhaver and then they turn around and chastise us for even wanting sex, I hate how the glorify violence against people they dislike but when we do it's a bad thing. I'm tired of these fuckers defending trannies every single fucking day despite the fact that they are way more violent then us, these trannies faggots get all the support from these big companies and politicians but no a single person dares to defend not even just incels but the lonely men of our society.
I'm so very tired of my own mind working against me, every single time I start to even feel miniscule of happenis my own mind decides to flood me with endless waves of OCD and depression, constant reminders of how much a failure i am, constant reminders of how it will likely all end with me dead, in prison or and old man all alone forever alone, I hate how my OCD makes it so a focus way too much on minor details that shouldn't matter at all to the point of being extremely bothered by stuff that shouldn't bother anyone
I'm so very tired of being unable to change anything, an rational man living my life would want to change it. but i'm constantly unable. I can't find a job because i made the one mistake of not working when i was 16 and now the my country is being overrun by jeets with more experience working minimum wage jobs then i have so now every minimum wage job requires 2 years of experience, I did lose some weight went from 180 to 165, i've gained muscle but what does this change for me? i'm still putridly ugly woman want absolutely nothing to do with me, i can't change the fact that i'm austistic i can try to manage my OCD but it's just gets too powerful alot of the times, i tried several different mind altering drugs but nothing worked and most of the times it made things worse, I've tried therapy, i've tired consuelling nothing fucking wrongs, I tried dating apps, i tried approaching people in person, i tried joining clubs there is something so fundamentally different about me that i cannot connect with normal people. Nothing changes i'm tired of it, maybe if i just wait another 10 fucking years i'll finally make it but i'm just fucking so tired of waiting for change and nothing happening.
I'm just so very tired, all of this every single day. It's a pain i would wish on no-one not even ITfags not even the most scummy politicians. This is one of the worst fates that a person can be doomed to, the only thing worse is being locked up in some psychos homemade torture chamber or being in prison with a bunkmate that rapes you every night. Being physically disabled would only be worse if it ended up leading to this kind of life, otherwise i'd rather be physically disabled but have a girlfriend who actually loved me. I don't wanna die, i don't wanna die, i don't wanna die but i don't wanna live like this for the rest of my life either.
