You see this image? That group is my peers and the red guy is basically me: If that red guy stood within that group, they would slowly start to disperse and meet up in a direction that is directly opposite to me.
Just today I was in class and I noticed something; literally NO-ONE was sitting by my section of the classroom, forget next to me, forget by my table. No, the entire section was empty and only had me there. "Where did the other students go?" straight to the other side of the class that's fucking where!
All it took was two students being absent -who actually sat next to me- to have the entire remaining section of my row voluntarily segregate themselves from me
, 7 students just up and left to fill up the other row! Heck! There wasn't enough seats for one so he grabs a seat from my row and puts it on the other row. And the thing is, they've been doing this for months, only now I was forced to acknowledge that it's directly because of me and not the other 2 absentees!The accounting class, the computer rooms, lunch break in the fucking cafeteria, everywhere I sit there is this great radius of nothing that surrounds me! No soul to be seen in any seat nearby me nor anyone close to my proximity.
Just LOL at being literal people repellant! Having a face so disgusting that people can't even stand being close-by you! Am I even seen as a human anymore? I feel like a zoo animal that just happens to be sentient instead of as a human, people clearly treat me like that!
And before I get spammed with "Just go take a shower, you have B.O. BRO" Keep in mind that you're talking to someone who showers 3 times a day, washes and irons his own clothes daily, shaves his armpit/pubic/butt hairs monthly, slathers deodorant on himself after every shower all under the assumption that he 'might have B.O'. A foid once told me that I am literally odourless THAT is how much I keep myself clean.
I have always operated in life with this cope that I am like an ant to people; I'm just too insignificant to be noticed, imagine my anger when I realize that I'm the fucking gorilla tarantula on the ceiling everyone's too scared to deal with! It's quite clear that I am actively being avoided in class because I'm a facial mess. Even the lecturer remarked about how my section of the class was empty and everyone just shrugged their shoulders as if they're not guilty of socially ousting me!
Honestly, fuck this, I'm going neet this week. I've consumed more suicide-fuel than I need!
