I'm so sick of being a loser.
I'm stuck in the same place as i was 6 years ago. Feeling like a worthless piece of shit that can't achieve anything in life because he's too emotionally sensitive.
Seeing everybody getting the best in life makes me feel worthless and at the same time really angry.
I hate others for having what i don't have.
Seeing stuck up people around me, them being being so self-satisfied and confident makes me want to strangle them.
I just what to see them in pain when their only source of confidence gets taken away. That would make me feel better.
I can't get a job because I'm afraid of responsibility, i don't have money for a therapist but at the same time i need to work so i can go to said therapist.
I can't do anything, so i leech off my parents that are getting pretty sick of me.
I can't even get a gf like a normal person. The only thing i get are platitutdes from people on how i should work harder, whilst tearing my soul out all this time trying to find a partner.
They all say that I'm good looking but still no one approaches me, or kisses me on the cheek. I've used tinder and swiped every girl possible and still no matches.
Having a tinder for 5 months and still not getting matches really just makes you wanna rope.
I'm getting sick of listening to songs from bands that have really romantic lyrics that give me a sense of loneliness everytime i hear 'em.
But listening to them at the same time gives me a sense of catharsis that somewhat fills the void where i cope.
Music has always been my coping mechanism, i can always turn to music to help me cope.
My work has never been good enough and my effort has never been enough.
I've never been happy with anything that I've done or tried to do.
I'm stuck in the same place as i was 6 years ago. Feeling like a worthless piece of shit that can't achieve anything in life because he's too emotionally sensitive.
Seeing everybody getting the best in life makes me feel worthless and at the same time really angry.
I hate others for having what i don't have.
Seeing stuck up people around me, them being being so self-satisfied and confident makes me want to strangle them.
I just what to see them in pain when their only source of confidence gets taken away. That would make me feel better.
I can't get a job because I'm afraid of responsibility, i don't have money for a therapist but at the same time i need to work so i can go to said therapist.
I can't do anything, so i leech off my parents that are getting pretty sick of me.
I can't even get a gf like a normal person. The only thing i get are platitutdes from people on how i should work harder, whilst tearing my soul out all this time trying to find a partner.
They all say that I'm good looking but still no one approaches me, or kisses me on the cheek. I've used tinder and swiped every girl possible and still no matches.
Having a tinder for 5 months and still not getting matches really just makes you wanna rope.
I'm getting sick of listening to songs from bands that have really romantic lyrics that give me a sense of loneliness everytime i hear 'em.
But listening to them at the same time gives me a sense of catharsis that somewhat fills the void where i cope.
Music has always been my coping mechanism, i can always turn to music to help me cope.
My work has never been good enough and my effort has never been enough.
I've never been happy with anything that I've done or tried to do.
