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Okay, holy shit, here goes nothing. I'm new to this whole Incel thing, I recently got into it and realized how much I can relate. If I don't understand some of the slang here yet, be at least a little patient with me, I barely understand any of the shit some of you guys are talking about. Anyways, I get bullied severely at school. Actively only by males, but I notice how females look at me. But this is about the male bullies. No, I'm not a faggot, don't ban me. I'm straight and I know. Let me summarize what these guys have been doing to me so far: They beat me up several times, stole my money, stole other belongings of mine, made embarrassing photos of me and published them, forced me to eat trash/dirt and other things other people consider as bullying. Now, my problem is: This fucking shit is turning me on. I don't fucking know why, but it's not because my bullies are male. The same would happen if my bullies would be female. It's the action itself. And it lowkey is the only thing keeping me from offing myself????? I'm not mainly here because of this problem, I too am ignored and hated by every female I know. And it's lowkey the reason why I'm thinking of ending it all. The only thing that helps me cope is this stupid fucking bullying, pain and humiliation. I am so disgusted by myself. I literally cut myself because it helps me get off. I don't fucking know why I'm telling you guys this, but I felt this is the only website where I can get this shit off my chest. Share whatever thoughts, advice, etc. that you want. I don't care. This is probably a very random first post, but I just had to tell somebody. Don't judge, or do. I couldn't give a rat's ass.
