I’m just become more psychotic by the day

[Twisted]

I honestly don’t really give a shit about my health in my conquest to looksmax. I’m literally willing to put myself through the most dangerous surgeries and drugs to looksmax.

When I look at how optimistic and happy-go-lucky I used to be before being redpilled and how jaded, bitter and angry I’ve become in the last 2 years since being redpilled I just worry what I’ll be like in the future if I’m already like this at 18 years old.

I just don’t smile much anymore, almost every positive action has some alterior motive to me and just the mere sight of a couple, or a Stacy, or a Chad can just destroy my day.

I’ll be 20 before I can even get the surgeries to looksmax and then 21 by the time they’re all complete (possible older if HGH/mk-677 doesn’t work and I have to resort to LL). I don’t know if I’ll be able to hold out that long.

I know many will say to be optimistic and think of the bright future ahead if I looksmax successfully but consider this. I’m supposed to be in the prime of my life: partying, girlfriends and trying to make memories. But here I am, trapped here until I looksmasx (if it even works) because I’m adamant that society will reject me in my current phase and redpill forums are pretty much the only place I can seek refugee. Even then I have to worry about inceltears judging me and making a mockery out of my plight when I just want a safe haven where I can be surrounded by people who know what I am going through with no normies around.

Even if I looksmax I think the damage of 21+ years of inceldom will be irrevocable and I’ll pretty much never be NT. I have no idea how I’m going to reverse this.

Sorry for the pessimism but I needed to let it all out somewhere

 

[Reddit_is_for_cucks]

well after looksmaxing you should cheat on girls, emotionally manipulate them, and play with their mind and make them destroy their friendship over you and then leave them.
That's what I would do if I turned into Chad 1 day

 

[Twisted]

well after looksmaxing you should cheat on girls, emotionally manipulate them, and play with their mind  and make them destroy their friendship over you and then leave them.
That's what I would do if I turned into Chad 1 day

I’d still need to put on a convincing act that I wasn’t an ex-incel first though.

 

[Sub8Hate]

I honestly don’t really give a shit about my health in my conquest to looksmax. I’m literally willing to put myself through the most dangerous surgeries and drugs to looksmax.

When I look at how optimistic and happy-go-lucky I used to be before being redpilled and how jaded, bitter and angry I’ve become in the last 2 years since being redpilled I just worry what I’ll be like in the future if I’m already like this at 18 years old.

I just don’t smile much anymore, almost every positive action has some alterior motive to me and just the mere sight of a couple, or a Stacy, or a Chad can just destroy my day.

I’ll be 20 before I can even get the surgeries to looksmax and then 21 by the time they’re all complete (possible older if HGH/mk-677 doesn’t work and I have to resort to LL). I don’t know if I’ll be able to hold out that long.

I know many will say to be optimistic and think of the bright future ahead if I looksmax successfully but consider this. I’m supposed to be in the prime of my life: partying, girlfriends and trying to make memories. But here I am, trapped here until I looksmasx (if it even works) because I’m adamant that society will reject me in my current phase and redpill forums are pretty much the only place I can seek refugee. Even then I have to worry about inceltears judging me and making a mockery out of my plight when I just want a safe haven where I can be surrounded by people who know what I am going through with no normies around.

Even if I looksmax I think the damage of 21+ years of inceldom will be irrevocable and I’ll pretty much never be NT. I have no idea how I’m going to reverse this.

Sorry for the pessimism but I needed to let it all out somewhere

You're 18, focus on looksmaxxing and try to get laid. Don't spend too much time here or you'll most likely hurt your chances. If surgery is not an option for right now, then you can spend the next couple of years getting jacked.

 

[Twisted]

You're 18, focus on looksmaxxing and try to get laid. Don't spend too much time here or you'll most likely hurt your chances. If surgery is not an option for right now, then you can spend the next couple of years getting jacked.

That’s sort of what I’m doing but with roids and peptides to increase frame, height and muscle but I spend a lot of time here so I can get pragmatic advice on how to use them safely.

 

[IsolationHurts]

Get out of here and we will pray for you to not come back here in 7 years.

 

[Twisted]

Get out of here and we will pray for you to not come back here in 7 years.

I have no choice. This place and other sites in the manosphere (Sluthate ect) are the only places I can get pragmatic, redpilled advice and not just bluepilled advice.

For example if I show my face here people will be like:

“Weak lower third need implants, eye assymetry, 5”7 is manlet tier, framecel ect.” This is what I need to hear and then I can be guided on what surgery I need and what peptides to go on.

If I show my face on some normie site, they’ll just compliment my green eyes, ignore the flaws and tell me to accept myself and that nobody is perfect or tell me I need counselling and have a bad attitude.