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Sinbad Gehenna
Autistic deformedcel
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- Joined
- Sep 13, 2023
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I have spent the majority of my teen years sitting in my room doing fuck all but playing vidya and jacking off to 2d cartoons. And if im going to be brutally honest, i am not prepared for this world. Everywhere i go, especially outside i feel like i am investigated from head to toe by normies. Even in my own family. I feel as if they know almost each and every secret i have. I jack off to porn and i feel like i am being watched trough the camera of my phone. Something has really gotten to me mentally and i don't really know the cause of this.
This loneliness is really making me feel ill physically, generally i never had an issue with it until now when im realising im getting older. I don't know how much i can bear this. Usually whenever i have this feeling i drink it down with alcohol, but this time it isn't doing it for me. I need to do something, and not tomorrow. As soon as possible.
I don't believe i am an ugly man, i don't think it is over. If i thought so, i would've killed myself by now.
I'm going to download tinder again and ill take any advice on the internet i find trustworthy. I will post more updates on the future if anything changes, with screenshots if possible.
This loneliness is really making me feel ill physically, generally i never had an issue with it until now when im realising im getting older. I don't know how much i can bear this. Usually whenever i have this feeling i drink it down with alcohol, but this time it isn't doing it for me. I need to do something, and not tomorrow. As soon as possible.
I don't believe i am an ugly man, i don't think it is over. If i thought so, i would've killed myself by now.
I'm going to download tinder again and ill take any advice on the internet i find trustworthy. I will post more updates on the future if anything changes, with screenshots if possible.