I did it buddy boyos.
First of all, thanks to the supporters and people who shared their experiences (especially @Singularity314). To the haters: let me cope in peace ffs.
Now, as for how it went:
It was like heaven. It felt so good to finally being held by someone, I've actually gotten tears and became over-emotional, fucking hell. I realized what I was missing all the time and nearly cried. I feel like I can't get enough now, and might become addicted to that shit. It certainly feels like a drug, giving me short-term pleasure but long-term most likely misery, because I can only have it for such a short time and by paying with it.... to imagine that Chad gets this and more and on a daily basis is the ultimate rage and suicide fuel. But what can I do? I rather take this than suffering until the grave.
I was nervous and anxious as fuck at first, but it was way less stressfull and awkward than I suspected. We lied down on a bed and she just lied next to me and put her head on me and it felt pretty normal and I got comfortable after some time.
