First of all, hello.
I went 2 days without sleeping yesterday, two days and two nights, because being a fucking virgin is comsuming me. I had to force myself to sleep because I'm traumatized at how loser I am, I had a little bit of hope when I was a teenager but each day that passes I see how other people have sex, intimacy, relationships and affection, while I sit down seeing how years passes, waiting for my turn like a fucking idiot, until the dissapointing day of my death finally comes.
I'm an inexperienced virgin and I know people say desperation is unattractive, but I am desperate as hell. I'm just being honest.
Not just desperate with sex, desperate to be considered worthy enough to have sex with, but I'm fucking trash. This desperation led me to be a rabbit porn comsumer, but I decided to improve and not watch porn again, and I didn't watch porn for 2 years, but now I'm tired, I decided to watch porn again some days ago, given that, after all, that's the onlyway I'll ever see the beauty of female nudity. I'll watch amateur porn just to use those images and sounds to lose my eyes and imagine doing that to a woman that loves me. It's sad.
And I'm fucking furious at how it's impossible to find non-toxic advice to get sex. Every single dating coach tells you to be an alpha and dominate, manipulate, and eliminate your niceness. The other advices are from women that say things like "just be yourself", "personality matters more like looks", or "niceness is good, but not enough". They actually think I haven't tried all those things JFL, they underestimate how fucking desperate I am. It's easy for you to tell me to not be desperate when you're a young girl being dicked and hate fucked in the most animalistic way possible by different chads, I wish I also had a carrousel time, but I have to sit down and cry, with my necessities unsatisfied.
And sorry if I made an English mistake, I'm a Spanish speaker latinocel.
I went 2 days without sleeping yesterday, two days and two nights, because being a fucking virgin is comsuming me. I had to force myself to sleep because I'm traumatized at how loser I am, I had a little bit of hope when I was a teenager but each day that passes I see how other people have sex, intimacy, relationships and affection, while I sit down seeing how years passes, waiting for my turn like a fucking idiot, until the dissapointing day of my death finally comes.
I'm an inexperienced virgin and I know people say desperation is unattractive, but I am desperate as hell. I'm just being honest.
Not just desperate with sex, desperate to be considered worthy enough to have sex with, but I'm fucking trash. This desperation led me to be a rabbit porn comsumer, but I decided to improve and not watch porn again, and I didn't watch porn for 2 years, but now I'm tired, I decided to watch porn again some days ago, given that, after all, that's the onlyway I'll ever see the beauty of female nudity. I'll watch amateur porn just to use those images and sounds to lose my eyes and imagine doing that to a woman that loves me. It's sad.
And I'm fucking furious at how it's impossible to find non-toxic advice to get sex. Every single dating coach tells you to be an alpha and dominate, manipulate, and eliminate your niceness. The other advices are from women that say things like "just be yourself", "personality matters more like looks", or "niceness is good, but not enough". They actually think I haven't tried all those things JFL, they underestimate how fucking desperate I am. It's easy for you to tell me to not be desperate when you're a young girl being dicked and hate fucked in the most animalistic way possible by different chads, I wish I also had a carrousel time, but I have to sit down and cry, with my necessities unsatisfied.
And sorry if I made an English mistake, I'm a Spanish speaker latinocel.
