Venting I'm done, wish I could go back 10 years in time, and be 14/15yo forever

[Justanotherbloke]

I'm seriously done.....
One thought that keeps me somewhat relaxed, is that I'm not the only one.
I know for a fact on this forum, lots of fellow members are fed up by this bullshit society.
The numbers are stacked against us, women hold all the cards, women these days have the baseline bodycount of ancient prostitutes and apart from that, My future looks empty, I have nothing to live for. AKA: I have no purpose.

I wish I could go back in time and be forever 15.
No stress, no societal expectations, not thinking about these whores romantically as much as I do now.
It kills me inside.
Women and romance are like heroin addiction, especially if you are part of this forum and blackpilled.
You want more, but every time you think of them (taking that 'hit' or 'jab'), it hurts you.... it slowly eats you up.

Fuck this society, how could we have reached a point in society where women essentially have the world at their fingertips?
It's pathetic, it doesn't make any sense whatsoever.
There's always a better option for her, and it's 1 swipe away.
Jfl at the looksmaxxers putting in 100's of hours of looksmaxxing, workouts etc just to get treated like an option and thrown away a few months / year down the line

 

[kcarrots]

Bring me back to being twelve, even less responsibilities

 

[9009]

Bring me back to when I was 13.

 

[Justanotherbloke]

Bring me back to being twelve, even less responsibilities

My golden years were from 12-15.
I was actually living life back then, enjoying it.
Just doing my own thing, playing video games, being outside ath the local woods, hiking, enjoying the sun even though I wasn't getting girls.
I wasn't thinking of it as much, as I now do

 

[kcarrots]

My golden years were from 12-15.
I was actually living life back then, enjoying it.
Just doing my own thing, playing video games, being outside ath the local woods, hiking, enjoying the sun even though I wasn't getting girls.
I wasn't thinking of it as much, as I now do

When you were that age not getting girls wasn’t a major problem yet it’s not like you stood out or felt left out at that age. Luckily

 

[Justanotherbloke]

When you were that age not getting girls wasn’t a major problem yet it’s not like you stood out or felt left out at that age. Luckily

That was our late bloomer mindset.
I had such a mindset, and it kept me calm.
'My time will come'.
Little did I know, that 10 years later I'd be here with you guys

 

[_meh]

My golden years were from 12-15.
I was actually living life back then, enjoying it.
Just doing my own thing, playing video games, being outside ath the local woods, hiking, enjoying the sun even though I wasn't getting girls.
I wasn't thinking of it as much, as I now do

It's definitely more freeing not always constantly thinking about women or being sexually frustrated.

I miss the days of being prepubescent and not being attracted to girls.

 

[_meh]

And women dare to complain about living life on "hard mode"...

Literally everything is given to them.

I usually see way more homeless men than homeless women.

 

[Justanotherbloke]

It's definitely more freeing not always constantly thinking about women or being sexually frustrated.

I miss the days of being prepubescent and not being attracted to girls.

I was starting to get horny and jacked off often at 14/15, but somehow it wasn't as bad, as it is now in terms of longing and wanting that unattainable fairy tale, that only exists in Disney movies.

I had other stuff to do, Sports, hobbies and was living more so in the moment, instead of planning months / years ahead.
That's what kept me grounded

 

[_meh]

I was starting to get horny and jacked off often at 14/15, but somehow it wasn't as bad, as it is now in terms of longing and wanting that unattainable fairy tale, that only exists in Disney movies.

I had other stuff to do, Sports, hobbies and was living more so in the moment, instead of planning months / years ahead.
That's what kept me grounded

I suppose it's also an age thing as well. A lot of the novelty wores off because you've already experienced the joy of playing video games, but now it just becomes a simulation for you.

When you're younger everything is new and more novel, and so things back then were just more exciting compared to now.

 

[Vector2800]

The peak of my life was 10-14. Once I turned 15 I became chronically depressed.

 

[fullofchagrin]

14-15 was even more brutal for me. 15 was when i attempted suicide and gave myself brain damage

My life was never great but it was actually worth living before 11-12

 

[Justanotherbloke]

14-15 was even more brutal for me. 15 was when i attempted suicide and gave myself brain damage

My life was never great but it was actually worth living before 11-12

Suicidal thoughts started to enter my life in my early 20s, simply cause I came to terms with what my life will look like in the future.
No way out, nothing to look forward to.
During my teens I was just not really bothered with this stuff, lived more in the moment

 

[fullofchagrin]

Suicidal thoughts started to enter my life in my early 20s, simply cause I came to terms with what my life will look like in the future.
No way out, nothing to look forward to.
During my teens I was just not really bothered with this stuff, lived more in the moment

it's brutal

 

[Justanotherbloke]

it's brutal

It comes in waves in my case.
For weeks I feel somewhat OK and good, and after that, a week very off and very depressed and it literally feels as if I'm an a deep, black hole.

 

[glutty]

Sadly you age and time never stops.