Hi guys
I'm posting this thread to summarize some thoughts I've had over the years (Long years)
Sorry for poor english, not my main languge
"How could it come to this?"
"Why me?"
I wanted to share my story of how I went from a happy kid to a 20 year old guy wondering when this nightmare will end. Enough of that, let's rewind a few things.
I was born into a modestly wealthy, not rich, family. I had a very good childhood and I would consider my parents the best a child could have. I grew up in a good white neighborhood. When I was young, I would get together with all the boys in my neighborhood to play and hang out. Of course, I had problems then, but today I would consider them peanuts.
I used to hang out with a girl a lot, even with her in her room, my memory of her has faded over the years, so I was surprised to have that chapter in my childhood. But as you grow up, you usually lose the ability to be friends with anyone.
In elementary school I had a few friends and I would call that time a good chapter, but not great. It really sucked when I got into the next chapter of school, I think high school would describe this chapter very good. I quickly became the outsider and the quiet kid, with that you usually lose the ability to interact with girls in school. But at least I had two friends in my class who were also outcasts, plus I had my brother in another class and his friends. I was never bullied at school, but when you are excluded in every possible way it pretty much destroys your self-confidence, I drifted away from most of my early childhood friends, the rest left me, no one wants to be friends with an outcast....
I have mostly forgotten my school days, probably on purpose, I don't want to be reminded that they existed.
After that I did an apprenticeship as a mechanic, now comes the interesting part, which I would consider my main reason for becoming an incel. In my training I had virtually no girls in my class, the one that was in my class just took advantage of the guys to get attention, I had to find that out the hard way....
Never having a female friend since childhood and living a very isolated life from 15-19 where I met almost zero girls made me an incel, to add some information, I approached almost every girl I met during that time, I approached 5 girls, resulting in 5 rejections total, otherwise I wouldn't be posting here.
Let's summarize:
1. being rejected by every girl you liked CHECK.
2. never had any female friends since early childhood CHECK
3. having a crippled self-esteem throughout teenage years CHECK.
I fell down the rabbit hole at 17, I think at that point my parents and two year older brother knew something was odd, it didn't help my reputation when I dropped black pills at family dinners.
It's very funny to compare myself to my older brother. He got a girlfriend when he was 16, lucky guy, he escaped all that shit before it even started. Nowadays we live completely different lives, and I think it all goes back to the point that he was able to make all these sweet memories with his high school sweetheart while I was rotting in my room.
Currently I am trying to escape my life sentence, I am trying to meet girls at a local community, I also want to set up a home gym to gymmaxx.
I'm not going down without a fight, I want to better myself to move up. If all that doesn't work out, I will go to Thailand with my younger brother in the summer of 2022.
How did it come to this?
There were several events in my past that led to all of this, but to change all of that, I would have had to live a completely different life.
So, why me??
I don't know how I deserved this, maybe I committed war crimes in my past life, I don't know why I deserve to be an incel.
To go back to the point were i wrote about my older brother. Its funny to see that i am losing my empathy i once had slowly but steady, when i read the newspaper i just have to laugh about how shitty our world is. He on the opposite is very understanding, has kept his empathy and is in general a good man.
A women gets killed on her way home, didnt read, dont care. A Silo blows up in libanon, didnt read, dont care. Women are getting beaten up and harassed in the nightlife, i cant fucking care anymore. Inceldom slowly alters my brain, im losing the things i once were proud of, my empathy, my kindness, and theres nothing i can do about it..
Inceldom made me into a money hungry person, i was able to 3x my money with crypto, and when i get my inheritance i will use it to squeeze money out of some poor tenants, this whole world is a burning casino, so stand up and fill your bags gentleman, as i said, i dont fucking care. Most people think that incels are some poor suckers, but they fail to realize that the incel problem grew beyond that point, when im 30 i will get a very good inheritance.
Everyday i dream of ascending, because it would fix so many things. Im living the life of a gay man in the 1950s, i have to hide and lie myself through life. Because when other people find out you never had a girlfriend, they start to shit all over you and laugh behind your back.
See you guys, i wish you all the best
-Just a random guy who is trying to find his place in the world
I'm posting this thread to summarize some thoughts I've had over the years (Long years)
Sorry for poor english, not my main languge
"How could it come to this?"
"Why me?"
I wanted to share my story of how I went from a happy kid to a 20 year old guy wondering when this nightmare will end. Enough of that, let's rewind a few things.
I was born into a modestly wealthy, not rich, family. I had a very good childhood and I would consider my parents the best a child could have. I grew up in a good white neighborhood. When I was young, I would get together with all the boys in my neighborhood to play and hang out. Of course, I had problems then, but today I would consider them peanuts.
I used to hang out with a girl a lot, even with her in her room, my memory of her has faded over the years, so I was surprised to have that chapter in my childhood. But as you grow up, you usually lose the ability to be friends with anyone.
In elementary school I had a few friends and I would call that time a good chapter, but not great. It really sucked when I got into the next chapter of school, I think high school would describe this chapter very good. I quickly became the outsider and the quiet kid, with that you usually lose the ability to interact with girls in school. But at least I had two friends in my class who were also outcasts, plus I had my brother in another class and his friends. I was never bullied at school, but when you are excluded in every possible way it pretty much destroys your self-confidence, I drifted away from most of my early childhood friends, the rest left me, no one wants to be friends with an outcast....
I have mostly forgotten my school days, probably on purpose, I don't want to be reminded that they existed.
After that I did an apprenticeship as a mechanic, now comes the interesting part, which I would consider my main reason for becoming an incel. In my training I had virtually no girls in my class, the one that was in my class just took advantage of the guys to get attention, I had to find that out the hard way....
Never having a female friend since childhood and living a very isolated life from 15-19 where I met almost zero girls made me an incel, to add some information, I approached almost every girl I met during that time, I approached 5 girls, resulting in 5 rejections total, otherwise I wouldn't be posting here.
Let's summarize:
1. being rejected by every girl you liked CHECK.
2. never had any female friends since early childhood CHECK
3. having a crippled self-esteem throughout teenage years CHECK.
I fell down the rabbit hole at 17, I think at that point my parents and two year older brother knew something was odd, it didn't help my reputation when I dropped black pills at family dinners.
It's very funny to compare myself to my older brother. He got a girlfriend when he was 16, lucky guy, he escaped all that shit before it even started. Nowadays we live completely different lives, and I think it all goes back to the point that he was able to make all these sweet memories with his high school sweetheart while I was rotting in my room.
Currently I am trying to escape my life sentence, I am trying to meet girls at a local community, I also want to set up a home gym to gymmaxx.
I'm not going down without a fight, I want to better myself to move up. If all that doesn't work out, I will go to Thailand with my younger brother in the summer of 2022.
How did it come to this?
There were several events in my past that led to all of this, but to change all of that, I would have had to live a completely different life.
So, why me??
I don't know how I deserved this, maybe I committed war crimes in my past life, I don't know why I deserve to be an incel.
To go back to the point were i wrote about my older brother. Its funny to see that i am losing my empathy i once had slowly but steady, when i read the newspaper i just have to laugh about how shitty our world is. He on the opposite is very understanding, has kept his empathy and is in general a good man.
A women gets killed on her way home, didnt read, dont care. A Silo blows up in libanon, didnt read, dont care. Women are getting beaten up and harassed in the nightlife, i cant fucking care anymore. Inceldom slowly alters my brain, im losing the things i once were proud of, my empathy, my kindness, and theres nothing i can do about it..
Inceldom made me into a money hungry person, i was able to 3x my money with crypto, and when i get my inheritance i will use it to squeeze money out of some poor tenants, this whole world is a burning casino, so stand up and fill your bags gentleman, as i said, i dont fucking care. Most people think that incels are some poor suckers, but they fail to realize that the incel problem grew beyond that point, when im 30 i will get a very good inheritance.
Everyday i dream of ascending, because it would fix so many things. Im living the life of a gay man in the 1950s, i have to hide and lie myself through life. Because when other people find out you never had a girlfriend, they start to shit all over you and laugh behind your back.
See you guys, i wish you all the best
-Just a random guy who is trying to find his place in the world
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