Solo Disident
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I'm going to this mental care center now.
I've talked to the psiclogist there wich is a dude and it seems I will be able to tell him my most gruesome problems with him in confidentiality. He said to me that he wont write in the report anything that I dont want, and I more or less trust him. So the first step into going to the center was easier than I thought. At least with this guy i can talk. Hope he stays on my side and does not betray me.
My problems are forbiden and hot topics in Spain: (I like JBs, im a mysoginist and the more hot topic of all: I have uncontrolable anger issues towards woman, to the point of violence) else why i was scared as shit about going to the center and delayed it for like 3 years. You dont know how forbidden is in Spain today to have this problems. I had to legit close myself at home so nobody would send me to the stake 15 years ago. There are men bein jailed righ now for calling a woman a bitch for real no lying. The guy made a pact with me that I only talk about this issues with him and I say nothing to the rest of the staff as they are all foids!!
Spain is feminist hell look it up for yourselfs.
HOWEVER: They've assigned me an advisor/tutor wich is going to be my link between me and the center. AND SHE IS A FOID.
That means any issue I have, I'll have to call this person first. She will be trying to coordinate all my activities and even VISIT ME AT MY HOMETOWN if I have a crisis!!!
Explanation: I've been needing a foid to care about me and understand my problems since 11, that Im alone, abandoment issues form my family, in desperate need to get a gf and sex and affection, that I've been bullied by foids, that I ned sex and company, Im touch starved, have a ton of health issues, and ned SEX SEX AND SEX. I will not open that much to her I hope of course however:
This foid is going to be the first time a woman in my life is gona care about my life, and come so close to me as to tell her that I am in a lot of trouble and suffering, and even come to my house!! So they assigned me this foid that althought she is in the wall allready is the youngest one in the center and probably was a Stacie in her youth. You can see she was beautifull in her youth for sure.
To make it short and simple, even if shes not my type (I like JB) I will be falling for her. I know this allready because it has happend to me before. Its what giga-desperation does to the mind. Im to desperate, TO DESPERATE, and desperation leads you to even fall for foids wich you dont like (just becuase there is nothing else to choose, and because I WILL BE WATCHING HER EVERY FUCKING WEEK FOR MORE THAN A YEAR!!
This looks bad, really really bad. I know myself. This has happened to me before. And is allready starting to happen. I will fall into some wierdo imaginary love story shit in my mind that I know for a fact it will end up in rejection. However I will be unable to stop it just for the fact that is the only foid I will be seen every fucking day and she will get involved in my life more than any woman has ever donne in my life!! Not even my mother cared about me! An even if she is just making her job Im gonna have issues, reals issues. You understand what I mean? Desperation is desperation.
Its gonna feel like a fucking torture. Watching this Stacie-like foid everyday and she asking me how I am and how I feel and offering help. Not once in the story of my live (im 34 now) a foid has pay any fucking atention to me of any kind. Can you imagine the mind strugle? Can you imagine this extended for 1.5 years?
I still havent touch a boob in my life! KHHV here!
Boy this looks bad bad bad. Im gonna be in a lot of trouble.
I NEED HELP!! SOMEBODY HELP ME!!!
PS: In case somebody wonders, yes I have to go to the center. I've been in issolation for 15 years and they are trying to help me break that hikkikomori state and help me go living in my own place leaving my problematic family who destroyed my life from the beggining so I dont have much options. Is my last chance of getting out of this hell.
IM FUCKED. Any sugestions?
I've talked to the psiclogist there wich is a dude and it seems I will be able to tell him my most gruesome problems with him in confidentiality. He said to me that he wont write in the report anything that I dont want, and I more or less trust him. So the first step into going to the center was easier than I thought. At least with this guy i can talk. Hope he stays on my side and does not betray me.
My problems are forbiden and hot topics in Spain: (I like JBs, im a mysoginist and the more hot topic of all: I have uncontrolable anger issues towards woman, to the point of violence) else why i was scared as shit about going to the center and delayed it for like 3 years. You dont know how forbidden is in Spain today to have this problems. I had to legit close myself at home so nobody would send me to the stake 15 years ago. There are men bein jailed righ now for calling a woman a bitch for real no lying. The guy made a pact with me that I only talk about this issues with him and I say nothing to the rest of the staff as they are all foids!!
Spain is feminist hell look it up for yourselfs.
HOWEVER: They've assigned me an advisor/tutor wich is going to be my link between me and the center. AND SHE IS A FOID.
That means any issue I have, I'll have to call this person first. She will be trying to coordinate all my activities and even VISIT ME AT MY HOMETOWN if I have a crisis!!!
Explanation: I've been needing a foid to care about me and understand my problems since 11, that Im alone, abandoment issues form my family, in desperate need to get a gf and sex and affection, that I've been bullied by foids, that I ned sex and company, Im touch starved, have a ton of health issues, and ned SEX SEX AND SEX. I will not open that much to her I hope of course however:
This foid is going to be the first time a woman in my life is gona care about my life, and come so close to me as to tell her that I am in a lot of trouble and suffering, and even come to my house!! So they assigned me this foid that althought she is in the wall allready is the youngest one in the center and probably was a Stacie in her youth. You can see she was beautifull in her youth for sure.
To make it short and simple, even if shes not my type (I like JB) I will be falling for her. I know this allready because it has happend to me before. Its what giga-desperation does to the mind. Im to desperate, TO DESPERATE, and desperation leads you to even fall for foids wich you dont like (just becuase there is nothing else to choose, and because I WILL BE WATCHING HER EVERY FUCKING WEEK FOR MORE THAN A YEAR!!
This looks bad, really really bad. I know myself. This has happened to me before. And is allready starting to happen. I will fall into some wierdo imaginary love story shit in my mind that I know for a fact it will end up in rejection. However I will be unable to stop it just for the fact that is the only foid I will be seen every fucking day and she will get involved in my life more than any woman has ever donne in my life!! Not even my mother cared about me! An even if she is just making her job Im gonna have issues, reals issues. You understand what I mean? Desperation is desperation.
Its gonna feel like a fucking torture. Watching this Stacie-like foid everyday and she asking me how I am and how I feel and offering help. Not once in the story of my live (im 34 now) a foid has pay any fucking atention to me of any kind. Can you imagine the mind strugle? Can you imagine this extended for 1.5 years?
I still havent touch a boob in my life! KHHV here!
Boy this looks bad bad bad. Im gonna be in a lot of trouble.
I NEED HELP!! SOMEBODY HELP ME!!!
PS: In case somebody wonders, yes I have to go to the center. I've been in issolation for 15 years and they are trying to help me break that hikkikomori state and help me go living in my own place leaving my problematic family who destroyed my life from the beggining so I dont have much options. Is my last chance of getting out of this hell.
IM FUCKED. Any sugestions?
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