I was in a social circle that mocked me every single day, I got upset sometimes and other times laughed it off. Constantly talking behind my back people betraying me and constant disrespect out of everyone around me.
Spent a period of time in the library reading manga everyday alone.
I was really happy growing up so I always smiled, laughed and tried to engage with others (not caring about my subhumanity). My carefree joyful attitude was always met with backhanded condescending remakers and attitudes from others. I can't remember how many times I've been backstabbed, actually, I remember every single one, I could never forget those pitiful experiences.