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I have a really rare disorder called TMAU. Basically I smell like shit 24/7. Like REALLY bad. Automatic death sentence for even a chad…. It’s something that just isn’t bearable with people. I fill up an entire store with my smell. When people get close to me they get itchy faces and my breath is insane. The only way to reduce it is a strict diet. Even then you still smell. I wish I could just be able to be around other people. let alone having a girlfriend. People around me get angry just for existing in their presence. people either try to ignore me or think I’m weird as fuck. Transport is the worst. I have been living with this fucking bullshit for 8 years since 14 now 23. Last 6 years I have been rotting away in my room, no job, no friends. Nothing. My mental is completely fucked I have to encourage myself to go anywhere outside the house.
fun part is I have autism, my face looks like a person with FAS, fat, small hands, micro dick, big feet. My height is the only thing I got “lucky” on at 183cm. When you have Balkan genetics all your parents do is compare you to the chads in other families and blame me for being a depressed loner as if I had a choice in any of it. My father married my shitty genetics mother after a MONTH of knowing her. After she got issues with her first baby, they then decided to have me because my father was fucking Selfish and thought he needed a purpose in his life or something as he was pushing 40’s and it was getting late for him. They divorced an I never knew my mother that much at all.
It’s hilarious to me how much my father hates me and is disgusted how I turned out. He was a chad at young age and looked good for a 38 so obviously stupid foid married him quickly for his looks. He won’t accept that I was born to be a loser, nope all the control is in my hands apparently. He makes it seem like the reasons I’m like this is because of my “decisions”. “Others your age are studying” they are getting married and successful”. Gaslighting never stops. Oh but I should be thankful because he was a single father looking after me and my sister for a decade, guess he should have just thrown me in the bin like any normal parent right? I owe him everything in his eyes. A true narcissist piece of shit father. You don’t have fucking children and expect them to thank you for giving them a shitty fuck all existence. It’s the most brutal fucking shit you can hear as an incel. He’s one of those blue pill retard parent that thinks anyone can be successful with people or girls.
conventionally attractive couples should only have children. Genetics is life. I’m absolutely cursed and do not hold any future. Even If I could ever have the chance at breeding (which I won’t). I would never pass on my shitty genes.
fun part is I have autism, my face looks like a person with FAS, fat, small hands, micro dick, big feet. My height is the only thing I got “lucky” on at 183cm. When you have Balkan genetics all your parents do is compare you to the chads in other families and blame me for being a depressed loner as if I had a choice in any of it. My father married my shitty genetics mother after a MONTH of knowing her. After she got issues with her first baby, they then decided to have me because my father was fucking Selfish and thought he needed a purpose in his life or something as he was pushing 40’s and it was getting late for him. They divorced an I never knew my mother that much at all.
It’s hilarious to me how much my father hates me and is disgusted how I turned out. He was a chad at young age and looked good for a 38 so obviously stupid foid married him quickly for his looks. He won’t accept that I was born to be a loser, nope all the control is in my hands apparently. He makes it seem like the reasons I’m like this is because of my “decisions”. “Others your age are studying” they are getting married and successful”. Gaslighting never stops. Oh but I should be thankful because he was a single father looking after me and my sister for a decade, guess he should have just thrown me in the bin like any normal parent right? I owe him everything in his eyes. A true narcissist piece of shit father. You don’t have fucking children and expect them to thank you for giving them a shitty fuck all existence. It’s the most brutal fucking shit you can hear as an incel. He’s one of those blue pill retard parent that thinks anyone can be successful with people or girls.
conventionally attractive couples should only have children. Genetics is life. I’m absolutely cursed and do not hold any future. Even If I could ever have the chance at breeding (which I won’t). I would never pass on my shitty genes.
