Ever since middle school, my default emotion has been sadness. In fact, I recall being a frequent crier since the third grade, so I guess I was just a sad person since then. The fact that I'm Indian and women hate me just makes things worse.
I've been contemplating suicide for half a decade now, but I know I can't do it. I need to support my family and pay them back for all they've done for me. I don't want them to live in a world where their son has offed himself. Above all else, I'm not allowed to kill myself in my religion, so at least that's a preventative measure.
I realized that the only thing keeping me alive, aside from the obvious familial and religious concerns, has been video games and anime. How could someone live such a pathetic life, with no friends to depend on, and so unattractive to people. Every uncomfortable face of women I've talked to is etched into my memory.
I don't hate women, and I don't hate Chads. There's a saying not to blame the messager for what he or she's trying to deliver. These people are simply reminding me that I'm a worthless sack of garbage.
I'm not a happy person who has his sad moments, I'm a depressed moments who has very brief moments of happiness.
I've been contemplating suicide for half a decade now, but I know I can't do it. I need to support my family and pay them back for all they've done for me. I don't want them to live in a world where their son has offed himself. Above all else, I'm not allowed to kill myself in my religion, so at least that's a preventative measure.
I realized that the only thing keeping me alive, aside from the obvious familial and religious concerns, has been video games and anime. How could someone live such a pathetic life, with no friends to depend on, and so unattractive to people. Every uncomfortable face of women I've talked to is etched into my memory.
I don't hate women, and I don't hate Chads. There's a saying not to blame the messager for what he or she's trying to deliver. These people are simply reminding me that I'm a worthless sack of garbage.
I'm not a happy person who has his sad moments, I'm a depressed moments who has very brief moments of happiness.
