Blackpill I’m a lonely subhuman who should probably rope at this point

[Castaway]

For the last multiple weeks I have done absolutely nothing but compulsively goon, use this forum and drink myself into a stupor almost every night. The gooning in particular has gotten very bad as I can now goon for up to an hour straight and do this several times a day. It's very intoxicating and numbing to the point that it feels like I'm on heroin or some shit, especially when I combine it with alcohol. This combined with my excessive drinking has completely destroyed my brain and I'm now more depressed than ever, with my only solution being to goon longer and harder and drink even more. I've come to ponder my situation and now I seriously feel like roping knowing this is what my life amounts to and I have no prospects beyond it. I wish I was normal with friends, a GF, a good paying job etc but I'm not, I'm an isolated, shut-in loser with nothing to do but drown my brain with copious amounts of dopamine. My life is a pathetic waste of resources and should best end it to do both the world and myself a favor. I don’t know if I’ll ever really self-delete, but it’s the likely the best option for me. Better death than having to deal not only with the world that despises me, but also with my own conscience.

 

[NIGGER BOJANGLES]

I wouldn't consider yourself subhuman in looks. You look normal to me from what I've seen, and it's brutal even average guys get treated as bad as super ugly guys of the past

 

[Solid]

Not trying to sound redpilled but it might be a hormonal issue, given you chug alcohol and being able to goon for an hour straight is probably a sign of very high prolactin (probably side effect of the estrogenic effects of the alcohol you're drinking.) The depression is surely being fueled even further because of this.

 

[Subutex]

You should go to a psychiatric hospital immediately. Your situation will not get better by sitting at home alone.

I did the same 2 month ago, because I had serious suicidal thoughts and started to use heroin.

I was 3 weeks in a closed psychiatric hospital and it helped me a lot, because you live with other ill people, who are in the same situation as you.

You will not feel that alone anymore, because you are surrounded by other weird people. No chads, no foids, only guys with serious problems. I even found 1-2 real friends.

For me it was the best 3 weeks of the last 10 years

 

[Subutex]

You should go to a psychiatric hospital immediately. Your situation will not get better by sitting at home alone.

I did the same 2 month ago, because I had serious suicidal thoughts and started to use heroin.

I was 3 weeks in a closed psychiatric hospital and it helped me a lot, because you live with other ill people, who are in the same situation as you.

You will not feel that alone anymore, because you are surrounded by other weird people. No chads, no foids, only guys with serious problems. I even found 1-2 real friends.

For me it was the best 3 weeks of the last 10 years

The second, but way worse option is the opioid pill. I was addicted for 8 years myself, but they maybe saved me from suicide.

Opioids will cure your depression completely. The next 2-3 years you will have a happy life, but then your tolerance is to high for a good effect.

After the 2-3 years you will be completely fucked, because you need to take them, but they don't have a good effect anymore. You will lose all you money and end on the streets.

Opioid pill= Next 2 years a happy life with no depression, afterwards completely fucked and your situation will be worse than before.

But at least it's better than actually committing suicide. You will have 2 years to work on your situation and feel like a normal happy human.

ATTENTION= There is the danger of a deadly overdose

 

[ToBurble&Pine]

Same here