Venting im a forced introvert

[manletogre]

i never liked being alone, spending my time at home all day i hate every minute of it, i hate video games and other copes i do at home
i perfer having friends or girl to spend time with going outside and doing stuff. i used to go outside alot alone and i got so deperessed i stopped doing it
theres absolutely no reason to go out alone, eveyrone out there are with their partner or friends

im an extrovert but forced to be an introvert cuz of my inceldom. i bet noone is an introvert in this woorld. ur forced to be

 

[Asgard]

I mean, if I had friends... I'd only talk about my Next upcoming attacks in Arma 3 against 300 AI.

 

[LeFrenchCel]

"forced introvert" aka "being ugly"

 

[ElTruecel]

Yup. What’s the point of socializing if in every social situation you’ll just be a punching bag. Fucking brutal

 

[gamer]

What video games do you play?

 

[Emba]

So you are a inin

 

[Broly]

Not me, I’ve been like that since I was little. Being unattractive just made it worse.

 

[Feeshtu]

I have think that introversion is learned.
When we reach out to others, we get turned away. Our outside experiences are usually negative so we learn to stay distant.
So many times I had something I wanted to do, but didn’t because I knew I’d end up as the laughingstock.

 

[ElTruecel]

I have think that introversion is learned.
When we reach out to others, we get turned away. Our outside experiences are usually negative so we learn to stay distant.
So many times I had something I wanted to do, but didn’t because I knew I’d end up as the laughingstock.

Yup although some introverts are naturally introvert. Most of us autists were either shunned, bullied or made a laughing stock. Those like me who are stuck with some asshole cunts who mock me who I call “my friends” tend to only talk to the same few people. I’ve stopped talking to a lot of people I used to. Found no use if they didn’t talk to me first.

 

[N-Digger]

I don't mind staying at home most of the time but I wonder if it's a genuine feeling or whether I've conditioned myself with negative experiences. Maybe if I wasn't autistic and had a easier time socialising with others it wouldn't feel so bad and I would go outside more.

 

[ordinaryotaku]

I am too.

Back when I was a kid, I used to be very extroverted, and I had lots of friends. For a while I was the "popular" kid at school, but I wasn't a massive dick or anything like that. Imagine what a popular kid in high school would do in the mid-2000s, I was basically the elementary school version of that.

After fourth grade, I was forced to move due to my parents' stupid job bullshit and everyone in my new school started treating me like shit. I strongly believe it was because at this time I started to become overweight and I also started to wear glasses, because absolutely nothing changed for me personality-wise from before I moved to after I moved. Ostracization and belittlement by these vicious ass motherfuckers from fourth grade on made me into an introvert. I lost all my weight by the time I was in 10th grade, but I was still ostracized. It's only women who go out of their way to treat me like shit now (and I'm in college, by the way, it's just more proof that a lot of Gen Z cunts are entitled and never truly mentally age past elementary school due to being coddled and treated like princesses).

Even if I became Chad overnight, the mental damage that I received from fourth grade on has been done and there is no returning. I'm receptive to conversations, but otherwise I am mute and I will absolutely refuse to initiate conversations or anything nowadays because of the fear that the person I'm talking to will just lash out at me. I'm not going to a therapist because I know they are going to put me on a list, force me to take medications, and take away my rights, all because of shit I literally could not (and cannot) control.

Despite also liking to stay inside and play video games, when I have the time, I still do "extrovert" activities like going outside, enjoying nature, going to bars, restaurants, sometimes clubs, but I definitely feel like I stick out like a sore thumb, and not in good context, either. I really, do not give a shit, however, and try to enjoy myself when I'm out however I can, and I try to avoid the judgements of normies and especially women.