I trusted a foid.
So there was a girl I've met like half a year ago. We haven't spoken too much, we were just very distant aquaintances.
But like three months ago I discovered that she's an escort. A bloody expensive one, too.
And then... she texted me. She knew that I was going through some really fucked up shit (I was stupid enough to tell my problems with depression, inceldom and coping with father's suicide) on various facebook groups.
And she perfectly knew what to do.
She started to earn my sympathy by talking to me and giving false hope. Things like "visit me and maybe we will do something nice".
So when I got back to the city I study in a week ago (and she lives here), I thought that this is my chance. I thought I would ascend. We scheduled our meeting once, but she had a client. So the new one was somewhere next week. The week that has my birthday - October 10th.
But tonight... I got this text from her ex-boyfriend. He told me to stop thinking about sex. He told me that she doesn't want, nor ever will have anything sexual with me (unless I pay, of course). I was confused. It all seemed to have no sense at all.
So I texted her... and damn. She said that it was true - she never meant to invite me over for sex or anything and stated that I just made it all up in my mind just because she was kind and nice to me.
Yeah, giving false hope is somehow considered being nice. Why wouldn't she tell me that I won't get anything? I asked her a few times and she didn't decline anything...
I feel so fucking devastated. I knew that foids are cruel, but... damn.
I have never felt so fucking mad at myself. I just want to fucking die.
So there was a girl I've met like half a year ago. We haven't spoken too much, we were just very distant aquaintances.
But like three months ago I discovered that she's an escort. A bloody expensive one, too.
And then... she texted me. She knew that I was going through some really fucked up shit (I was stupid enough to tell my problems with depression, inceldom and coping with father's suicide) on various facebook groups.
And she perfectly knew what to do.
She started to earn my sympathy by talking to me and giving false hope. Things like "visit me and maybe we will do something nice".
So when I got back to the city I study in a week ago (and she lives here), I thought that this is my chance. I thought I would ascend. We scheduled our meeting once, but she had a client. So the new one was somewhere next week. The week that has my birthday - October 10th.
But tonight... I got this text from her ex-boyfriend. He told me to stop thinking about sex. He told me that she doesn't want, nor ever will have anything sexual with me (unless I pay, of course). I was confused. It all seemed to have no sense at all.
So I texted her... and damn. She said that it was true - she never meant to invite me over for sex or anything and stated that I just made it all up in my mind just because she was kind and nice to me.
Yeah, giving false hope is somehow considered being nice. Why wouldn't she tell me that I won't get anything? I asked her a few times and she didn't decline anything...
I feel so fucking devastated. I knew that foids are cruel, but... damn.
I have never felt so fucking mad at myself. I just want to fucking die.
