I'm nearing 30 in a couple of months. Obviously my life is different than when I was young. Yeah, when I was younger getting a girlfriend was my main concern and focus. Now that I'm old I'm concerned about my health, my money, and my parent's health. I've had insomnia for years now, it comes and goes, but now I'm getting severe aches and pains I never felt when I was young. Age is fucking me. Now that my dad is going to retire soon I know I'm going to have to spend a lot of money on the household pretty soon. And I'm just working part time in a field where I don't see a stable career. I'm constantly scared that my parents will die. It's all stressful.
But you know what hasn't completely gone away? My desire for a gf, my carnal desire for sex and my desire for intimacy, validation, and a sense of purpose through that relationship. Yeah, my main concerns aren't getting a gf anymore. Realistically this sudden situation with my health has become my main concern. But that physical cravings with women hasn't left me. In fact, I think it's all correlated, the reason I'm so stressed is because I don't have a gf to console me. When I get these insomnia bouts and all this stress and aches I often go to the massage parlor. And typically I feel a lot more relieved. Like sometimes I go to the parlor after a hard weeks of work, and I feel so relieved after the session that I'd be able to work another shift straight after. All that touch, attention, affection and sex really heals and motivates. I definitely got more problems but that desire for a woman is still strong, and my main problems would be alleviated by a gf.
But you know what hasn't completely gone away? My desire for a gf, my carnal desire for sex and my desire for intimacy, validation, and a sense of purpose through that relationship. Yeah, my main concerns aren't getting a gf anymore. Realistically this sudden situation with my health has become my main concern. But that physical cravings with women hasn't left me. In fact, I think it's all correlated, the reason I'm so stressed is because I don't have a gf to console me. When I get these insomnia bouts and all this stress and aches I often go to the massage parlor. And typically I feel a lot more relieved. Like sometimes I go to the parlor after a hard weeks of work, and I feel so relieved after the session that I'd be able to work another shift straight after. All that touch, attention, affection and sex really heals and motivates. I definitely got more problems but that desire for a woman is still strong, and my main problems would be alleviated by a gf.
