SuicideFuel If you were good looking ....

[RageAgainstTDL]

You could be sitting on Tinder or Bumble or Hinge right now, sending flirty messages back and forth with some girl who likes you. You could feel wanted. You could have options. You could be setting up a date with a girl to go out to dinner or a movie. You could hold her hand after. Maybe kiss her. If things go well, at some point, maybe you have sex with her. Maybe she could love you and you could love her.

These are the things I think about. I don't know about you guys but my brain feels like it's being progressively crushed in a vise.

 

[zangano1]

Yes, meanwhile I'm here rotting playing videogames I don't even like

 

[ManletHalfCurry]

Meanwhile I am sitting masturbating to slug hentai (It is irrefutably fucking over)

 

[ovrload]

Don’t even care at this point.

 

[mcfroggy]

Meanwhile I am sitting masturbating to slug hentai (It is irrefutably fucking over)

??? Is... the slug on penis or is it a slug girl? Wtf?

 

[ManletHalfCurry]

??? Is... the slug on penis or is it a slug girl? Wtf?

A slug fucking a girl

 

[mcfroggy]

A slug fucking a girl

Fucking degenerate

 

[ManletHalfCurry]

Fucking degenerate

JFL

 

[Joelossus]

Meanwhile I am sitting masturbating to slug hentai (It is irrefutably fucking over)

How did you become this cultured? I want to learn.

 

[Deleted member 19756]

My fishes are getting pretty horny but then they try to betabux me.

 

[Vermilioncore]

Instead I'm dying. This is my life. This is who I am. When I die, I want INCEL engraved into my tomb and I want people to piss on my grave and destroy me even in death

 

[dingopuss]

Meanwhile I am sitting masturbating to slug hentai (It is irrefutably fucking over)

Hahahahahahahahaha what the FUUUUUUCK

 

[ManletHalfCurry]

How did you become this cultured? I want to learn.

Years upon years of porn degeneration.

 

[Words2_live_bye]

Yes, meanwhile I'm here rotting playing videogames I don't even like

 

[IamJacksBrokenHeart]

Don’t even care at this point.

Women arent the answer .
We need something else to fulfill us .
Or just rope .

 

[78980n]

Don’t even care at this point.

 

[ReallyRice]

Yes, meanwhile I'm here rotting playing videogames I don't even like

 

[Napoleon de Jizzbal]

Would be fucking and dumping pretty whores

 

[FukFeminism]

Yes, meanwhile I'm here rotting playing videogames I don't even like

 

[fOreVER]

Make porno and start a music career

 

[Rassimov]

Live by the mediterranean beach and wait every summer to sleep with tourist girls.

 

[Neggr]

Yes, meanwhile I'm here rotting playing videogames I don't even like

brutal, same buddy boyo

 

[AntiPain]

Maybe she could love you and you could love her.

if you define "love" as being sexually attracted to someone well
but the other points are pretty much true

 

[Deleted member 17419]

Do drugs OP, I think it could do you well to detach from humanities physical component for a while.

 

[RageAgainstTDL]

Do drugs OP, I think it could do you well to detach from humanities physical component for a while.

Thanks for the suggestion. I've done a fair number already. Never done hallucinogens, coke, or MDMA though. Coke I always worry about getting hooked on. Hallucinogenics and MDMA I worry about brain damage or a bad trip with hallucinogens since my mind goes dark places 24/7 already. Drugs are okay but when they wear off you're just back where you started.

Surgery is the only potential path to a better life for me. I'm gonna try to fix my face with several operations over the next 2 years starting in the next 6 months and if it doesn't go well I'm checking out. I'll keep taking st. John's wort for an artificial boost since it works well enough for that so I can keep one foot in front of the other until then. That plus sleeping tablets for my insomnia have honestly been the most helpful drugs I've ever taken. I even told my parents this is my plan. This will be it for me one way or another. We'll see how it goes.

 

[Deleted member 17419]

Thanks for the suggestion. I've done a fair number already. Never done hallucinogens, coke, or MDMA though. Coke I always worry about getting hooked on. Hallucinogenics and MDMA I worry about brain damage or a bad trip with hallucinogens since my mind goes dark places 24/7 already. Drugs are okay but when they wear off you're just back where you started.

I gotta be honest, taking psychedelics even when my mind has been in awful places has turned out to be cool and a relief from the boredom of the incel life. DMT or salvia, perhaps PCP lol, can easily go overboard, but that in itself can be a cool feeling afterward, if nothing else through realizing you are able to be stuck in such pergatory with no connection to your normal body or even three dimensional space as usually experienced. In some cases, it can leave you with the feeling it has gone on for weeks, while just having used up 15min of real time.

I can understand not wanting to get stuck on stimulants, it doesn't do much to distract you from any problems, and any faux alpha feelings it induces in you and any resulting behavior you show your surroundings will be limited and negatively multiplied with your looks anyway.

MDMA is neat in the moment, but it makes you cucked and naive just like SSRI.

Surgery is the only potential path to a better life for me. I'm gonna try to fix my face with several operations over the next 2 years starting in the next 6 months and if it doesn't go well I'm checking out. I'll keep taking st. John's wort for an artificial boost since it works well enough for that so I can keep one foot in front of the other until then. That plus sleeping tablets for my insomnia have honestly been the most helpful drugs I've ever taken. I even told my parents this is my plan. This will be it for me one way or another. We'll see how it goes.

Good luck either way, I wish you the best with anything you proceed on. You seem disfortunate in similar ways to me, your posts are always verbose yet with high actual useful information/wordcount ratio, and very worth reading.