The life and family Iwas born into basically ensures I'll never have any possibility of happiness. If I had my own freedom there would be a possibility I could fix my face with surgery. But since I was born into an ultra controlling family, even at 21 I'm terrified of going against their will. I have nightmares of them insulting and beating me.
When I try to muster courage I begin vomiting and having heart palpations. I'm completely and utterly buck broken. A pathetic servant for my family to use as they please.
Whenever my chest experiences pain I pray it's a heart attack because that's the only escape I can envision.
Not to mention my ugliness was basically caused by poor childhood living conditions blocking off my ability to breathe and giving me an underbite.
When I try to muster courage I begin vomiting and having heart palpations. I'm completely and utterly buck broken. A pathetic servant for my family to use as they please.
Whenever my chest experiences pain I pray it's a heart attack because that's the only escape I can envision.
Not to mention my ugliness was basically caused by poor childhood living conditions blocking off my ability to breathe and giving me an underbite.
