Reading through cyborgincel post, it made realize something, neither females or sex are my objective anymore, i should call myself involuntary hideous rather that Involuntary celibate since i'm more concerned about that that copulate right now.
Why? because he was right, is not the act of sex that is so great, is the validation that comes for it, i have already accepted that unless i mutilate my face(again) to made me look human i will die without a girlfriend, or real, organic sex, or even real, genuine female friendship, and knowing that, what the fuck cares if i manage to pump and dump some hoes because i tricked them that i someone that is not real? everytime i will imagine myself during the fuck or even most baseless conversation on how they will have reacted to me as they see the real me? as destiny choosed some males to basically be blasted for sex for existing, and condemned me to suffer permanent loneliness and lack of sexual starvation as not take i such drastic measures, the real pleasure of sex comes with consent, and their consent will be based in some surgeon hand, not myself, basically, the act of sex will be as null for me as masturbating.
I will continue to surgerymaxx, once i fix my deformation i will be maybe a 7/10, i will probably have sex once or two times after that, no lying, but after that i will go full volcel and focus in my career and forget about woman totally, i know this will be a shock for a lot of you since a vast minority on this forum are just high-inhibition average looking autists and will not know how to relate to this feeling, but i don't want millions of years of evolution putting theirselves in my way to be sucessful in the non-sexual areas of my life, that's a thing i'm cannot enable, since my puberty i was a legit 1.5/10 and i basically passed to be a child that was destined to graduate with honors in harvard to some loser with low qualifications that only by miracle don't dropped out of highschool, maybe some day CRISPR will fix this problem, but until that, is time to accept that hating the natural state of affairs is a lose of time.
Why? because he was right, is not the act of sex that is so great, is the validation that comes for it, i have already accepted that unless i mutilate my face(again) to made me look human i will die without a girlfriend, or real, organic sex, or even real, genuine female friendship, and knowing that, what the fuck cares if i manage to pump and dump some hoes because i tricked them that i someone that is not real? everytime i will imagine myself during the fuck or even most baseless conversation on how they will have reacted to me as they see the real me? as destiny choosed some males to basically be blasted for sex for existing, and condemned me to suffer permanent loneliness and lack of sexual starvation as not take i such drastic measures, the real pleasure of sex comes with consent, and their consent will be based in some surgeon hand, not myself, basically, the act of sex will be as null for me as masturbating.
I will continue to surgerymaxx, once i fix my deformation i will be maybe a 7/10, i will probably have sex once or two times after that, no lying, but after that i will go full volcel and focus in my career and forget about woman totally, i know this will be a shock for a lot of you since a vast minority on this forum are just high-inhibition average looking autists and will not know how to relate to this feeling, but i don't want millions of years of evolution putting theirselves in my way to be sucessful in the non-sexual areas of my life, that's a thing i'm cannot enable, since my puberty i was a legit 1.5/10 and i basically passed to be a child that was destined to graduate with honors in harvard to some loser with low qualifications that only by miracle don't dropped out of highschool, maybe some day CRISPR will fix this problem, but until that, is time to accept that hating the natural state of affairs is a lose of time.
