In my case, a lot of reasons. It's illegal and, primarily, because I have anxiety. Also a feeling that I don't "deserve it". Kinda hard to explain. But I do think that I should man up and do it once before I rope.
First, thanks for engaing with the question, I'm kinda interested in having this conversation.
Second, you can travel to places where it's both legal and affordable without going third world. Here in Germany it's legal and pretty cheap (think like 50-60 BJ, 120+for an hour, 200+ for two hours, though that might vary from city to city and if you go to a brothel or hire a girl from an escort site. You can look up a price list and compare first world countries to find the most cost-effective travel destination you are comfortable with. Go on vacation, go on a long weekend, go when you have safed enough of your neetbux or w/e.
Thridly. I have spend an entire lifetime being ruled by fear and hesitation and it ends up beind even worse than being hurt or humiliated
again would have been. Don't waste your time on worrying till your dead. "Deserving something" isn't real, w/e happend to you is the result of the genes you were born with and the enviorment you found yourself in, free will can't exist in a world running on deterministic physics with some true randomness at the lowest levels. You deserve feeling some happyness as much as anyone because anyone else born into your body would have done exactly as well as you did.
And don't wait till it's almost over, what if you find out you love sex, just sex, shortly before killing yourself? How stupid are you gonna feel when you find that the perfect cope was one big leap of faith away from you the whole time and now it's too late and you can't enjoy it any longer?
Both. I've never been loved and shown what true affection is like. I want to see what that is like the most. Because, well, like you said, I could already find out what sex is like with an escort.
Pay a girl for GFE, most girls offer that where I looked. It's still not real love, but your ape brain gets fooled by this
View: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pyxpxxW8VBo&t=3s
Why do you think it will perfectly tell apart real love from faked one, when countless men are falling for AI chatbots right now, even though they know they are chatting with a program.
And even if you can't forget it's all fake, so what? It's not perfect, it's not really what you want, but that doesn't mean it can't be enjoyable. That it can't be "good enough" to warm your heart a little and make your life a bit brighter.
Meaningless in the sense that you have not truly ascended. You basically used a very elaborate and expensive fleshlight. You have not attained reproductive success (unless you're extremely unlucky), not found love, not found actual, true companionship. It goes back to the Japanese calling escortcels "deluxe virgins".
"Ascension" is just a term. And who gives a shit about reproductive success, that's the "goal" of a brainless, actually goalless, mindless process called evolution, not of you or me. Many chads never achieve reproductive success and are happy anyways, our goals are more meaningful than some genetic code """trying to""" get replicated as much as possible.
We want to experience real desire and love from a woman. But lying next to a warm body, pressing yourself against her skin, kissing her, feeling her heartbeat, showering with her and soaping up her tits, having her swallow you to the hilt, that is more than just a fleshlight. There is a whole spectrum from "penis in plastic hole" to "sex with the love of your life" and the differences matter long before you reach the very upper end.
