As many of you know, I have extreme sleep issues. My body wakes me up every few hours and I never sleep straight through, and it’s been like this for around 4 years now. Often times I can’t even fall back asleep after hours of trying and end up having to work on 3-5 hours sleep and it’s horrendous.
And that’s exactly what happened today. Only managed to sleep 4 hours and my body woke me up like usual to go pee. At this point I’m always so exhausted and it takes everything I have to get up to pee but I have to because there is no other choice.
So then I try to fall back asleep with still plenty of time remaining to sleep more before work. But with my sleep issues that doesn’t mean much. I was patiently trying to fall back asleep for 4 fucking hours nonstop but my body wouldn’t let me and I didn’t even come close to falling asleep.
Do you have any idea what it does to you to be that patient and try so hard to sleep only for it not to work? Fuck this shitty existence
So now I have to push through a brutal day on such little sleep. Makes me wanna die and have the suffering end. Working is hell as an incel but it’s so much worse when you can’t even sleep beforehand and go in spent before your day even starts.
This is the shit that makes you wanna kill yourself. Many of my days off get ruined from lack of sleep too when I fail to fall back asleep. And I’m on strong sleeping pills too but they barely help because my body’s sleep system is so defective plus of all the issues I have in life on top of that.
And family has no empathy or care for you. My mother just bitched me out when she knew I was having trouble sleeping and always makes like it’s my fault for the issues I was dealt. And she makes light of these issues when most people would off themselves in a week of this. Like come on now, it’s your dumbass genetics that you gave me causing me much of my problems in life combined with you having me at way too old of an age. The least a mother could do is be empathetic towards my problems.
And that’s exactly what happened today. Only managed to sleep 4 hours and my body woke me up like usual to go pee. At this point I’m always so exhausted and it takes everything I have to get up to pee but I have to because there is no other choice.
So then I try to fall back asleep with still plenty of time remaining to sleep more before work. But with my sleep issues that doesn’t mean much. I was patiently trying to fall back asleep for 4 fucking hours nonstop but my body wouldn’t let me and I didn’t even come close to falling asleep.
Do you have any idea what it does to you to be that patient and try so hard to sleep only for it not to work? Fuck this shitty existence
So now I have to push through a brutal day on such little sleep. Makes me wanna die and have the suffering end. Working is hell as an incel but it’s so much worse when you can’t even sleep beforehand and go in spent before your day even starts.
This is the shit that makes you wanna kill yourself. Many of my days off get ruined from lack of sleep too when I fail to fall back asleep. And I’m on strong sleeping pills too but they barely help because my body’s sleep system is so defective plus of all the issues I have in life on top of that.
And family has no empathy or care for you. My mother just bitched me out when she knew I was having trouble sleeping and always makes like it’s my fault for the issues I was dealt. And she makes light of these issues when most people would off themselves in a week of this. Like come on now, it’s your dumbass genetics that you gave me causing me much of my problems in life combined with you having me at way too old of an age. The least a mother could do is be empathetic towards my problems.
