Careful what you wish for.
Once I fully woke up to it being bullshit after a lifetime of questioning and then finally finding the internet and learning more I was lost for a long time, heartbroken with a feeling of betrayal for having been lied to (either wittingly or unwittingly by clergy and other adults) and having to find a new worldview.
Fortunately I did find a new worldview or rather worldviews (National Socialism and European paganism) but it took a long time and a lot of searching since Jews and their Christ fag slaves did their level best to bury the truth and of course it wasn't just their efforts that hid the truth of Paganism being the white man's original religion, but time itself and the unfortunate ascendancy of the Christ cult, due to Jew's scheming and plotting and race traitors like Charlemagne of the Roman empire helping them enslave the entire white world with that shitty cult.