Hello. Im 17 and i decided that i will try to ascend, because im tired of my life being like this. Im gonna start working out, mewing (i dont believe that mewing works but its became a habit for me now so imma just keep doing it), i will change my diet, start skincaremaxxing, skin is underrated imo, my oily skin and dark circles under my eyes make me even uglier + i saw a good thread on looksmax.org for skincare - that forum is autistic but they know their shit, i'll buy an iphone because my current (xiaomi 8t) has one of the worst phone cameras i have ever seen. I look disgusting when i take selfies on it it's absolutely terrible in any lightning and it makes you look even uglier if ur ugly. Explains why Xiaomi users have no hoes. I will get a perm probably (my hair feels like fucking hay it has no volume with any amount of anything) and girls love curly hair. I also do some dumb shit like putting cold spoons on my eyes and take cold showers because im on heavy copium. I will start playing basketball, will fashionmaxx, my outfits rn look like a 1st grader, absolutely terrible quality nonbranded clothes that fit me awkwardly all in some weird ass colors. Also imma start approaching random women just to see what are the reactions like and to be less awkward with it. I know that i will probably be called autistic and retarded but this is the last thing i Can try. I will get hoes or die trying. Literally. If i don't ascend i will kill myself. That thought is probably what motivates me the most because a life like this is not worth living. My hatred and anger for myself really fuels me. So yeah i will either ascend or commit suicide.
