michael2222
I have no place in the world
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Right away after getting out of my car I was flanked by 3 couples walking to the theater. What cruel twist of fate decided I'd be at this point in my life?
Finally in the theater I sat down by myself. More couples come in. Its amazing how many there are. At this point it really starts bothering me. Im low T so my eyes water up, and I start crying. No human should have to suffer through loneliness like this. Im really surprised how much this bothered me.
Then, out of nowhere this 60 year old Mexican lady came and sat down next to me before the movie started. The amount of comfort and relief I felt when that happened... it was like the biggest burden was lifted off my shoulders. I didnt have to sit by myself through the movie. The sinking, dark feeling of loneliness suddenly disappeared because this stranger simply sat next to me. After the movie I really wanted to thank her, but I know it would sound weird, so I didnt.
I have tickets to a sportsgame and a concert by myself in the next 2 weeks. Im starting to think getting them was a mistake. Going to places like this and seeing all the couples crushes my soul. The whole thing about 'live your life and dont care about a partner' Im starting to think is utter crap. Its nearly impossible to go to these events that are meant to be experienced with others and not feel this black weight crush your soul. Everything in life was meant to be shared with someone. If this dark feeling comes up again at the game or concert I'm going to become a recluse.
Finally in the theater I sat down by myself. More couples come in. Its amazing how many there are. At this point it really starts bothering me. Im low T so my eyes water up, and I start crying. No human should have to suffer through loneliness like this. Im really surprised how much this bothered me.
Then, out of nowhere this 60 year old Mexican lady came and sat down next to me before the movie started. The amount of comfort and relief I felt when that happened... it was like the biggest burden was lifted off my shoulders. I didnt have to sit by myself through the movie. The sinking, dark feeling of loneliness suddenly disappeared because this stranger simply sat next to me. After the movie I really wanted to thank her, but I know it would sound weird, so I didnt.
I have tickets to a sportsgame and a concert by myself in the next 2 weeks. Im starting to think getting them was a mistake. Going to places like this and seeing all the couples crushes my soul. The whole thing about 'live your life and dont care about a partner' Im starting to think is utter crap. Its nearly impossible to go to these events that are meant to be experienced with others and not feel this black weight crush your soul. Everything in life was meant to be shared with someone. If this dark feeling comes up again at the game or concert I'm going to become a recluse.