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I realized today when I went out to visit my parents that every time I see a foid I quickly looked in the opposite direction because I did not want to see her reaction when she looked at me, when I realized this I was very angry, because it is not a normal behavior, nobody does it, but because of who I am and how I was always treated by the foids and the numerous times that they looked with disgust to me, I ended up being literally trained to not look at them, now not only do I end up looking away instinctively, but a huge anger comes when I do it, every time I go out in the street this anger just grows as I see that.
I see that my behaviors have been literally passed on to me as if I were a dressage dog while other dogs are willing to do whatever they want I can not do a harmless action that is already considered an attitude that needs punishment until I do not commit it anymore, look at a foid, talk to a foid, be in the same place as a foid, walk on the same sidewalk, sit on the side of a foid, all normal perfect behaviors that I am always punished for committing them.
I see that my behaviors have been literally passed on to me as if I were a dressage dog while other dogs are willing to do whatever they want I can not do a harmless action that is already considered an attitude that needs punishment until I do not commit it anymore, look at a foid, talk to a foid, be in the same place as a foid, walk on the same sidewalk, sit on the side of a foid, all normal perfect behaviors that I am always punished for committing them.