nxdismycope
Its not over - its just never began
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i was having a gooday. skipped uni. ate pizza. watched family guy. fapped.
had a good mood cuz somehow i got a good result on some test i sucked at. also mom didnt complained alot when i told her im not visiting this week.
then i had to go out to go to the bank. and there it was.... my physical therapist, aka my oneitis.
i saw her in the street. we walked in opposite direction. i noticed her when she was like 5m from me.... i got anxious. looked on the ground and kept walking.
no idea if she saw me or maybe even called me (had headphones.) or maybe she also noticed me and ignored, no idea. thought about turning my head after i passed her but was too high inhb.
next sunday i see her again and i wonder if she will say something about it. i acted like a low iq retard.
anyway the whole thing made my day goes to SHIT. heart was beating hard like a cuck. and after not thinking about her for 2 days now i think about her all day.
i cant believe i cant have her or other foid. i just CANT BELIEVE THIS SHIT.
even if she noticed me she probaly didnt care, 30 minutes later her bf was probaly balls deep inside her while i was at the bank playing cod in my phone for 2 hours untill it was my turn.
i just fucking cant anymore. i need to go muslim mode, hardcore muslim. like those that never touch women and maybe that way i will suffer less.
i curse the first day i went to her and let her touch me. too much suifuel for an incel.
F
U
C
K
and the cycle will just countiue. soon i will probaly not gonna need to see her anymore, and the oneittis thing will fade slowly untill some foid will say hey to me or something and ill have oneitis for her instead.
thats my life since i was 16yo. 7 years ago. had 9 oneitis's since.
had a good mood cuz somehow i got a good result on some test i sucked at. also mom didnt complained alot when i told her im not visiting this week.
then i had to go out to go to the bank. and there it was.... my physical therapist, aka my oneitis.
i saw her in the street. we walked in opposite direction. i noticed her when she was like 5m from me.... i got anxious. looked on the ground and kept walking.
no idea if she saw me or maybe even called me (had headphones.) or maybe she also noticed me and ignored, no idea. thought about turning my head after i passed her but was too high inhb.
next sunday i see her again and i wonder if she will say something about it. i acted like a low iq retard.
anyway the whole thing made my day goes to SHIT. heart was beating hard like a cuck. and after not thinking about her for 2 days now i think about her all day.
i cant believe i cant have her or other foid. i just CANT BELIEVE THIS SHIT.
even if she noticed me she probaly didnt care, 30 minutes later her bf was probaly balls deep inside her while i was at the bank playing cod in my phone for 2 hours untill it was my turn.
i just fucking cant anymore. i need to go muslim mode, hardcore muslim. like those that never touch women and maybe that way i will suffer less.
i curse the first day i went to her and let her touch me. too much suifuel for an incel.
F
U
C
K
and the cycle will just countiue. soon i will probaly not gonna need to see her anymore, and the oneittis thing will fade slowly untill some foid will say hey to me or something and ill have oneitis for her instead.
thats my life since i was 16yo. 7 years ago. had 9 oneitis's since.