I was always the loser cousin to everyone.

[iHATESOULS]

People said I looked like Borat or Napolean Dynamite when was 12. Remember i also have personality disorders like autism so I was also socially eccentric or really shy and an outcast even if I was a clown.


I had a mustach and unibrow and everyone called me ugly then, my male Slavic blonde cousin who was older would always belittle me, where I thought I looked like a ugly beast.

Close set eyes, gummy smile, things surgery couldn't change much.

I was always told by my moms side of the family my witch cousin and other cousins that I need surgery and that's why my crush doesn't like me.


Anyhow I saw scarface and it inspired me go shave my mustach and unibrow, lose weight. Tan. Blow dry my hair and people said I looked like Tony Montana and I ascended.

Still I was never incite to the events with our cousins or they even thought of inviting me to their parties.


I'm the loser outcast distant cousin.


On both sides.


Then I got fat, and old and now I'm incel again. For a short while I could fake it, and be a normie and called good looking and hide my receeding hairline.

Now? It's over again lol and demons. Porn, brain damage and brain disorders stopped me from ever getting girls.

 

[polvorb20]

It's rough when your own family, your own blood, turns against you.

 

[iHATESOULS]

It's rough when your own family, your own blood, turns against you.

Oh bro it was Always like that. My cousin who's my age, we were friends as kids! Family parties! Same age! As we turned teens all throughout our teens even if I slept over. He would leave me with his little brother and nerdy friends. And go with his friends to parties or get together.


He would take our cousin from Germany with him at friend parties with girls in highschool when he visited. Never me!

Never. Me? I'm nothing to him a loser emberassment.

I'm even nice to his best friend, and they still make fun of me and he doesn't accept my instagram follows. Lol don't worry tho I have payback coming to them.

 

[Truckzo]

My cousins are meh, I've mainly talked about my favorite cousin here, and hes actually super chill. He's one of the only people I feel like I can actually talk to irl and he actually gives me good advice and tries to help me.

Your cousins are just assholes, and if I were you I wouldn't put up with their bullshit, hell I used to have to fight with my cousin a lot (he kicked my ass every time) and we kinda just got along eventually because of that mutual respect.

 

[polvorb20]

Home life was rough, and schools was rough. Those were the only two settings I was in, because I almost never hung out with anyone.

 

[iHATESOULS]

My cousins are meh, I've mainly talked about my favorite cousin here, and hes actually super chill. He's one of the only people I feel like I can actually talk to irl and he actually gives me good advice and tries to help me.

Your cousins are just assholes, and if I were you I wouldn't put up with their bullshit, hell I used to have to fight with my cousin a lot (he kicked my ass every time) and we kinda just got along eventually because of that mutual respect.

My cousin is like that. His younger brother who's also most likely slightly autistic and into religion. He's not a party animal tho and never wants to go to the club with me.

They were having a get together recently at his house to watch ufc, with our cousins and friends, I wanted to come I felt so left out.

I got so mad, and he's like can you just come at 12 and sleep over

Lol at 12. That's when everyone leaves.

I'm not good enough to be at the party.

 

[iHATESOULS]

Home life was rough, and schools was rough. Those were the only two settings I was in, because I almost never hung out with anyone.

Same..... no friends. And if I had a friend he was so toxic and stressful to be with, a toxic retarded spaz who acted fake around ppl he saw as cool nt

 

[Truckzo]

My cousin is like that. His younger brother who's also most likely slightly autistic and into religion. He's not a party animal tho and never wants to go to the club with me.

They were having a get together recently at his house to watch ufc, with our cousins and friends, I wanted to come I felt so left out.

I got so mad, and he's like can you just come at 12 and sleep over

Lol at 12. That's when everyone leaves.

I'm not good enough to be at the party.

Dude that shit sucks. But like it wasn't really a party and you didn't miss out on much. Do you like have some sort of social disability or any idea as to why they do this shit to you, besides you being ugly of course?

 

[iHATESOULS]

Dude that shit sucks. But like it wasn't really a party and you didn't miss out on much. Do you like have some sort of social disability or any idea as to why they do this shit to you, besides you being ugly of course?

I used to be autistic and eccentric and weird I guess to people.

But even when I was quiet and just observing and shy they would totally laugh and shit on me all the time, even if I acted normal.


As we got older and went to weddings I actually am incredibly social. Our older male cousins we always idolized loved me.

I'm actually very nt and sociable and outgoing and funny when I drink a little at weddings. And they saw this.

Still for some reason they just STILL see me as the family loser and see me as inferior. And they want me to stay inferior.

Nothing I do is enough.

 

[Truckzo]

I used to be autistic and eccentric and weird I guess to people.

Low inhib autism will really fuck you up and it's hard to come back from that stuff (I know from personal experience)

Just try doing something impressive, or something like that. Normies are kinda chill with me now because I don't do dumbass shit anymore and I rarely talk, plus they hear about me sometimes because of my feats in football (angry self aware autist = NT = Fakecel niggers incoming). Although if I were you I probably wouldn't care and just focus on yourself, normies aren't really worth it and usually let you down. Just hang with your older cousins who have more insight into life, they're usually cooler to hang with.

 

[iHATESOULS]

Low inhib autism will really fuck you up and it's hard to come back from that stuff (I know from personal experience)

Just try doing something impressive, or something like that. Normies are kinda chill with me now because I don't do dumbass shit anymore and I rarely talk, plus they hear about me sometimes because of my feats in football (angry self aware autist = NT = Fakecel niggers incoming). Although if I were you I probably wouldn't care and just focus on yourself, normies aren't really worth it and usually let you down. Just hang with your older cousins who have more insight into life, they're usually cooler to hang with.

They're actually cool asf but one is in a relationship and like 30 now lol. I wanna go with single dudes to parties.

I can also see why you are fine, you're in highschool now and a lot of people change in highschool and their reputation gets improved.

It did for me too, people were like

"Dude What happened to you? I couldn't even have a conversation with you before"

There were some real dicks but a lot of people saw that I was normaller and matured.


So I can totally invision your scenario.

 

[Truckzo]

They're actually cool asf but one is in a relationship and like 30 now lol. I wanna go with single dudes to parties.

I can also see why you are fine, you're in highschool now and a lot of people change in highschool and their reputation gets improved.

It did for me too, people were like

"Dude What happened to you? I couldn't even have a conversation with you before"

There were some real dicks but a lot of people saw that I was normaller and matured.


So I can totally invision your scenario.

Based, just know that even if you wake up one day and you're some chad or whatever, people are still gonna have contempt for you. And when you sit on these websites for so damn long chatting with a bunch of people whom the majority of rarely go outside, you forget that and actually believe that there is a perfect man everyone is dickriding.

But you seem chill and I was wondering if you had discord kek.

 

[iHATESOULS]

Based, just know that even if you wake up one day and you're some chad or whatever, people are still gonna have contempt for you. And when you sit on these websites for so damn long chatting with a bunch of people whom the majority of rarely go outside, you forget that and actually believe that there is a perfect man everyone is dickriding.

But you seem chill and I was wondering if you had discord kek.

You're actually very chill and also cool yourself, and I don't wanna bring ethnicity into it but you being black is also very cool and makes me realize like God wants, to not be racist, and that toxic assholes are in every ethnicity and to only stick with the ones who are cool and your real people aka friends.

I doubt your family is as toxic as mine I just have a weird asf gened family who are like stereotypical toxic bullies.

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