I'm just so tired of life, constantly looking at my subhuman self in the mirror, knowing that nothing is going to change. Every day, my mental pain intensifies, and I'm aware that it's never going to get better. The agony in my mind has become unbearable. I wish for death because I believe that nothing will ever change in my life; instead, the pain will only continue to escalate. I genuinely despise this world and my own existence. I hope for a cataclysmic event like World War III, where I can either be obliterated by a nuclear blast or meet my end fighting on the front lines. I simply don't care anymore because I exist in a perpetual state of misery, where even my coping mechanisms fail to provide any solace.
