Serious I wanna apologise to all the cels i hurt

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I'm just anxious about the game tomorrow

If Liverpool loses tomorrow I'm roping

 

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[BrettyBoy]

Whatever it’s over, all good.

 

[idk125]

its alr dude we all go through the same situations on our lives

 

[Darkness to light]

I've also been larping about who I am

 

[Emba]

See you tomorrow unless yer banned

 

[Intellau_Celistic]

Your pain...was predestined.

"Two youths, a Negroe Boy and a Caucasian Girl, were destined to meet..."

 

[HighTGymcel]

I'm just anxious about the game tomorrow

If Liverpool loses tomorrow I'm roping

Benzema will probably score a hattrick again

 

[Darkness to light]

This is me irl

 

[METALMILITA88]

I've also been larping about who I am

Yes we know that you’re @startheon

 

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I'm 220 right now at 5'7 with shoes

 

[Intellau_Celistic]

"Two youths, a Negroe Boy and a Caucasian Girl, were destined to meet..."

Before we met, I felt enslaved by my relatives...chained to their perception of myself and Mother. When I went to "That Place", I realized that beings existed who were of much greater quality, and that I was able to taste a wealth beyond that of what I long had to experience.

 

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Before we met, I felt enslaved by my relatives...chained to their perception of myself and Mother. When I went to "That Place", I realized that beings existed who were of much greater quality, and that I was able to taste a wealth beyond that of what I long had to experience.

You should try reading the holy Quran

 

[Intellau_Celistic]

You should try reading the holy Quran

I am spiritual, though not religious.

The Cumskin hole I often spoke of protected my mental health when I was rotting over the years.

 

[Intellau_Celistic]

The Cumskin hole I often spoke of protected my mental health when I was rotting over the years.

Wauwatosa...was my joy. Never Brown Deer!

 

[Intellau_Celistic]

Imagine thinking some statusmaxxed football players would care about your ass

Each day, each week, I'd wait for the special Thursdays, when I could finally join a higher-class of humans:

 

[Intellau_Celistic]

Each day, each week, I'd wait for the special Thursdays, when I could finally join a higher-class of humans:

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When I was a four-year-old, my parents and I lived in a duplex, where my father would hit Mother and damage the walls, resulting in holes near a wooden desk she used for sewing. I recall pouring soap in my eyes at this age to stop them from arguing.

When we moved, my father would regularly come home and argue with Mother over anything he disliked. He broke the windows in our living room as well as the windows in our kitchen, he broke a "Leopard Statue", he broke our kitchen table, he broke plates, he threw Mother's computer and clothes into the garbage bin. He'd regularly pound on Mother's room door(Used for crafts). He'd yell at Mother as he was driving her to work.

My mother, as kind as she may be, used to grab me very forcefully(By the neck, as I was fidgeting with items; I would ache from it) and repeatedly tell me "Do you hear me!?! If people see you doing that, they will think you are men-tally retar-ded!" while shaking me and shaking the item near my eyes. She would tell me how embarrassing it is to have an autistic son who fidgets with items as a form of stimulation. Other times, she would hit me. When I said, "Please don't hit me!" once, she started laughing.

One day, Mother was asked by my father to write a check, which she did. However, he was angry because she was drying off after a shower. This led him to shove her onto the floor(She was naked) and kick her legs repeatedly, which I was present for and saw. He also broke her fingers and cut her knuckles, injured her knees and kicked her abdomen. Our utilities were cut off three times due to failure to pay, and the result was living with my paternal grandparents for weeks at a time. On the day we moved in with my maternal grandparents, me and Mother sat in the dark since my father didn't pay the utility bill("Well, then leave"; he left the house after yelling, which I hid from).

 

[ControlledInsanity]

This is me irl

In all honesty you seem like a great guy to join at the pub. Fuck what holes say or do about 5'7 they make the world a worse place for everyone.

 

[Intellau_Celistic]

In all honesty you seem like a great guy to join at the pub. Fuck what holes say or do about 5'7 they make the world a worse place for everyone.

 

[Darkness to light]

In all honesty you seem like a great guy to join at the pub. Fuck what holes say or do about 5'7 they make the world a worse place for everyone.

Thanks pal

 

[Intellau_Celistic]

its alr dude we all go through the same situations on our lives

Understood. I'll proceed:

Several years ago, I entered my second mental breakdown after months of torment from youth living in a youth commune. I was paranoid, afraid of sleeping, and kept hearing voices of those youth in my mind for months afterward. I'd sleep in the basement of a relative and cringe whenever I'd hear laughter.


I coped with this by recounting all my negative experiences daily. I recalled how I was criticized by relatives for ASD, bullied in group therapy for ASD, ostracized in the commune for ASD, and I started analyzing all aspects of my suffering and realized that I was non-NT and incapable of truly bonding with Normies in a meaningful way. Then, I researched my conditions and spent hours seeking out techniques and therapies for myself, since my relatives did little to help me with them.

Interesting suggestion. At the age of twelve, I noticed how "dissociated" I was from other youth. I'd view social interaction as "role-play".



Main Question:

I was nineteen and rotting in a basement:



Unable to integrate, I found myself dissociated from general society and spent my hours on an Internet Q/A website for hyper-partisan White males of middle-age.

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The above user is "electricpole". He was someone I encountered many times over the six years I spent on Yahoo Answers. He once responded to one of my anger-fueled questions involving S.R.B by providing a photo of himself and his Black girlfriend with the simple description of "My girlfriend is very educated and I respect her deeply. This isn't Stormfront".

None. When I was rotting in the basement of Mother's apartment, I slept on the floor and barely prepared meals.

 

[idk125]

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thats some deep shit ngl sad most of people are unheard when it comes t bullying

 

[LDARbeforeROPE]

This is me irl

Mogs me cause white

 

[Darkness to light]

Madrid will win

That's me gone

 

[Intellau_Celistic]

thats some deep shit ngl sad most of people are unheard when it comes t bullying

I'm starting to support JBWM - Just Be White Male

There's a reason I felt more at ease and comfortable in South Minneapolis than North Minneapolis. Wauwatosa is paradise compared to Brown Deer...Perhaps even St. Francis.

 

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I'm starting to support JBWM - Just Be White Male

There's a reason I felt more at ease and comfortable in South Minneapolis than North Minneapolis. Wauwatosa is paradise compared to Brown Deer...Perhaps even St. Francis.

What do you think of the somalians in minneapolis, i hear the foids are thick

 

[idk125]

I'm starting to support JBWM - Just Be White Male

There's a reason I felt more at ease and comfortable in South Minneapolis than North Minneapolis. Wauwatosa is paradise compared to Brown Deer...Perhaps even St. Francis.

yeah man i am white and its over for me due to my ugly face but being white can help in like getting promotions and stuff but only if you are high tier or a gig chad atleast. and personally i never been to america but i heard it is nice to live

 

[Intellau_Celistic]

What do you think of the somalians in minneapolis, i hear the foids are thick

Tionne was a whore who preferred Latino males.

Samantha, though, preferred Kradwell!

 

[BPJ]

normie ass trait to cheer for chad players

 

[BornToLose]

I'm just anxious about the game tomorrow

If Liverpool loses tomorrow I'm roping

They couldn't make history and win four trophies though? League mogged by City.

 

[Darkness to light]

They couldn't make history and win four trophies though? League mogged by City.

True, but where's city now

 

[Darkness to light]

You think we're gunna lose tomorrow

 

[BornToLose]

True, but where's city now

Still on a piss up with the league trophy 'cause they don't have a game tomorrow.

 

[Intellau_Celistic]

You think we're gunna lose tomorrow

No...Shannon, Kayla, Alexandria, Kanesha, all of them...can oppose us for our truthful statements.

We will be here all day, anyway.

 

[Sheogorath]

I'm just anxious about the game tomorrow
If Liverpool loses tomorrow I'm roping

you are a man of passion OP