I try to remind myself that It could always be worse, obviously this world is a dangerous and horrible place and am quite glad that I am safe form it’s brutality for the foreseeable future.
Just today I walked down to the store to get some flowers for my mom and I saw a guy who was probably a war vet in a wheelchair missing both of his legs, they were literally stubs. I got a bit of a reality check, stuff like that is beyond brutal to see and lets you know that It could be worse. But it’s also messed up to use the suffering of others to temporarily relieve yourself of your own burdens in life, so I don’t really want to do that.
But despite all this I feel immense pain form the loneliness/sexlessness. Like for example, my foid coworker. when ever I see her I want to die form the pain, I just want to experience physical affection and sex with her. But I never will, it hurts man. Like almost enough to drive you mad.
I especially feel pain when I hear about how others life mog me and shit. I also just feel worthless and I am very blackpilled about the average male experience. I also feel like I’ve fallen miles behind in life, I’ve felt like this my whole life honestly
Again am grateful for what I have and live in shit ton of fear about what I could loose, but the pain I feel when I see couples is immense, the pain I feel when I see foids, especially attractive foids is immense, the pain I feel when I try to sleep at night is sharp. I just don’t know what to make of it.
I can feel the loneliness eating at my organs, despite it being hellish maybe there’s a romantic element of endurance? Like rising above my desire or something greater?
I mean there’s people who literally suffer form cluster headaches and arthritis what grand story do they get??
Don’t really know what my point is anymore…….
Just today I walked down to the store to get some flowers for my mom and I saw a guy who was probably a war vet in a wheelchair missing both of his legs, they were literally stubs. I got a bit of a reality check, stuff like that is beyond brutal to see and lets you know that It could be worse. But it’s also messed up to use the suffering of others to temporarily relieve yourself of your own burdens in life, so I don’t really want to do that.
But despite all this I feel immense pain form the loneliness/sexlessness. Like for example, my foid coworker. when ever I see her I want to die form the pain, I just want to experience physical affection and sex with her. But I never will, it hurts man. Like almost enough to drive you mad.
I especially feel pain when I hear about how others life mog me and shit. I also just feel worthless and I am very blackpilled about the average male experience. I also feel like I’ve fallen miles behind in life, I’ve felt like this my whole life honestly
Again am grateful for what I have and live in shit ton of fear about what I could loose, but the pain I feel when I see couples is immense, the pain I feel when I see foids, especially attractive foids is immense, the pain I feel when I try to sleep at night is sharp. I just don’t know what to make of it.
I can feel the loneliness eating at my organs, despite it being hellish maybe there’s a romantic element of endurance? Like rising above my desire or something greater?
I mean there’s people who literally suffer form cluster headaches and arthritis what grand story do they get??
Don’t really know what my point is anymore…….
