That's it, i lost it. My strongest cope, the only cope that kept me going. The cope of being smart, well that's what i thought.
I'm currently in my second year of uni, and it has been complete suicidefuel from the beginning. Females everywhere, normies and high tier normies. They mog me so so hard.
Now this black guy came along, he's taller than me, stronger, better jawline, hes fucking better than me in everything even history. This guy constantly has females around him and he's not thugmaxxed, he's a suburban maxxed nigger. I can't comprehend this, how can someone like this even exist. Fuck..
Another part of my "being smart" cope was that i would get good grades, the professor would praise me for them, boosting my morale for everyday life. Now I'm barely getting passing grades and my will to study has rapidly decreased over the span of a year. I see my grim future, i already see it. Me, lonely, with no one. Why waste all this time for nothing? I've lost all motivation to make my hw, study for tests, etc.
I have a big test tomorrow and I haven't studied a thing..
Keep in mind i was always that smart nerd kid at school, my parents would be happy with my grades and so would i. Now imagine their faces when they see my current grades.
I've made up my mind, I'm going to ldar through this school year and then most likely kill myself at the end of this year or the school year (Which is in June). I will most likely also be taking a break from all social media, who knows, maybe I'll kill myself before i come back. I've managed to get access to a gun range in another city... Who knows i might end up on liveleak.
That is all, goodbye.
I'm currently in my second year of uni, and it has been complete suicidefuel from the beginning. Females everywhere, normies and high tier normies. They mog me so so hard.
Now this black guy came along, he's taller than me, stronger, better jawline, hes fucking better than me in everything even history. This guy constantly has females around him and he's not thugmaxxed, he's a suburban maxxed nigger. I can't comprehend this, how can someone like this even exist. Fuck..
Another part of my "being smart" cope was that i would get good grades, the professor would praise me for them, boosting my morale for everyday life. Now I'm barely getting passing grades and my will to study has rapidly decreased over the span of a year. I see my grim future, i already see it. Me, lonely, with no one. Why waste all this time for nothing? I've lost all motivation to make my hw, study for tests, etc.
I have a big test tomorrow and I haven't studied a thing..
Keep in mind i was always that smart nerd kid at school, my parents would be happy with my grades and so would i. Now imagine their faces when they see my current grades.
I've made up my mind, I'm going to ldar through this school year and then most likely kill myself at the end of this year or the school year (Which is in June). I will most likely also be taking a break from all social media, who knows, maybe I'll kill myself before i come back. I've managed to get access to a gun range in another city... Who knows i might end up on liveleak.
That is all, goodbye.
