I think I understand what ssomeone feels like right before they want to commit suicide

[TomathonClancy]

I feel empty inside, not happy nor sad. Every time I try to approach life with a positive mindset, I get disappointed. The other day, I decided to get up early and be excited for another day of college. After my classes, I worked hard to get all my work done so I could relax, but just as I was about to relax I saw that I got a bad grade on my homework.

Today my friend and I made plans to go out to get food, but then this guy comes back home with McDonald's and literally ignores me asking if we're going out later.

I wish I was dead. I know I'm too much of a coward to end it so I guess all I have is this feeling. Of course I know I'm ugly and undesirable, and that women all despise me. But the problem, I've found, has seeped itself into every corner of my life. I feel constricted and choked and I just want to blow my brains out with an RPG.

 

[ValiantThor2]

Yep. I have felt this way daily for the past 6 years and it is only getting progressively worse.

 

[TomathonClancy]

Yep. I have felt this way daily for the past 6 years and it is only getting progressively worse.

I'm also going 6 years too, I feel like it hits into overdrive once you pass the half-decade mark.

 

[Zaetheus]

 

[Six]

Today my friend and I made plans to go out to get food, but then this guy comes back home with McDonald's and literally ignores me asking if we're going out later.

Go ER

 

[LDARBuddah]

When I was at my most suicidal, which really was the only time I was close I felt like there was no refuge. Couldnt even distract myself with video games etc and I always had to go out for long walks just to calm down. Almost roped tbhtbh
but that was a while ago

 

[Anger]

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