Serious I think I just need to die

[VλREN]

I guess I am too much of a dopamine glutton to do it this year because I still have small stuff to look forward to, but I don’t see any other choice. It’ll just be more work and loneliness in the future

I have constant fantasies about turning myself into a horror movie slasher, like taping a saw and crowbar to my arm and covering myself in blood and stalking people in the woods.

I’ll probably commit suicide by cop but I am afraid that I’ll either pussy out and surrender or I’ll survive and I’ll end up in prison with literally nothing expect for getting beaten and raped by savages. (Prison is literally the last place I would ever want to end up, I’d rather fight in Ukraine then go to prison)

Suicide by cop is probably the best and most epic choice though, like maybe I’ll cover myself in blood and tape glass to my hands and act possessed by moving my limbs and head around super fast and I’ll charge them.

Like I imagine myself with my back turned away form the cops, standing in the dark on a sketchy dirt road at night. I’ll then twisted head around and as I turn I’ll make ear to ear grin and then charge. I’ll probably cut my mouth open so I’ll be bleeding form my teeth when I smile, will probably cut open my wrist to ensure that I’ll bleed to death even if I don’t die form the bullets

Imagine how disturbing the footage would be lol, it would probably end up in scary video compilation and people would debate if I was possessed by a demon or not.

I don’t own a gun so shooting my self is next to impossible
I don’t think I can slit my own wrists
I don’t think I can hang myself

However I fear most of this is just mental masterbation, like I’ll never act on it. My biggest tread is that I’ll be 40 one day and a 10000X more miserable loser that’ll probably die by getting shot by a nig at work.

I just realized that I am the same age as ER before he died and he completely life mogs me


NO HOPE NO CURE NO PROBLEM

 

[DarkStar]

relatable mang, I have had thoughts of dying by throwing myself from some tall building, blasting my head off with a 12-gauge, or stabbing myself seppaku style & bleeding out in the bathtub.

Truth is, most suicidal thoughts are just mental masturbation. In reality, most of us won't ever do it- at least for a long time.

 

[Adolf Kitler]

I’ll probably commit suicide by cop

That's retarded

 

[VλREN]

That's retarded

Just be slave theory

 

[FastBlast]

That's retarded

What's even more retarded is going on a forum and writing about it. Bro is speedrunning getting a visit from the feds any%

 

[HotDogCel]

I would rather just rope myself. Too many uncontrolled paramatters in suicide by cop. And you will not even witness the "glory/epicness" aspect of it, if there is any.

 

[Enigmaz]

Driving is the riskiest thing you can do. Your life is at the palm of not only your hands but all the other idiots on the road. And people don't know how to drive properly. This is why I drive everyday and I hope I can at least get an instant death and not be hospitalized with broken bones.

 

[DottKo334]

Like I imagine myself with my back turned away form the cops, standing in the dark on a sketchy dirt road at night. I’ll then twisted head around and as I turn I’ll make ear to ear grin and then charge. I’ll probably cut my mouth open so I’ll be bleeding form my teeth when I smile, will probably cut open my wrist to ensure that I’ll bleed to death even if I don’t die form the bullets

Imagine how disturbing the footage would be lol, it would probably end up in scary video compilation and people would debate if I was possessed by a demon or not.

You are underestimating the efficiency of a taser gun and/or pepper spray. I doubt a cop would use lethal force on you, especially if there's no criminal record or violent history OR possibility of being armed.

 

[Kaichee]

raped by savages.

brootal

 

[DottKo334]

Driving is the riskiest thing you can do. Your life is at the palm of not only your hands but all the other idiots on the road. And people don't know how to drive properly. This is why I drive everyday and I hope I can at least get an instant death and not be hospitalized with broken bones.

That sounds reasonable. But even in a car crash you risk ending up paralyzed, losing a limb, losing more than one limb having an even more miserable existence. Not to forget hospital bills n shit.

 

[Adolf Kitler]

What's even more retarded is going on a forum and writing about it. Bro is speedrunning getting a visit from the feds any%

oh shit it's over for him

 

[Adolf Kitler]

Just be slave theory

No, i meant that suiciding by cop is retarded. Using a rope is the best option imo

 

[VλREN]

What's even more retarded is going on a forum and writing about it. Bro is speedrunning getting a visit from the feds any%

I didn’t say anything illegal

 

[DarthBurritoBastard]

i don't think you should do that

 

[VλREN]

That sounds reasonable. But even in a car crash you risk ending up paralyzed, losing a limb, losing more than one limb having an even more miserable existence. Not to forget hospital bills n shit.

Literally more scary then death

 

[Jealous Freak]

I guess I am too much of a dopamine glutton to do it this year because I still have small stuff to look forward to, but I don’t see any other choice. It’ll just be more work and loneliness in the future

I have constant fantasies about turning myself into a horror movie slasher, like taping a saw and crowbar to my arm and covering myself in blood and stalking people in the woods.

I’ll probably commit suicide by cop but I am afraid that I’ll either pussy out and surrender or I’ll survive and I’ll end up in prison with literally nothing expect for getting beaten and raped by savages. (Prison is literally the last place I would ever want to end up, I’d rather fight in Ukraine then go to prison)

Suicide by cop is probably the best and most epic choice though, like maybe I’ll cover myself in blood and tape glass to my hands and act possessed by moving my limbs and head around super fast and I’ll charge them.

Like I imagine myself with my back turned away form the cops, standing in the dark on a sketchy dirt road at night. I’ll then twisted head around and as I turn I’ll make ear to ear grin and then charge. I’ll probably cut my mouth open so I’ll be bleeding form my teeth when I smile, will probably cut open my wrist to ensure that I’ll bleed to death even if I don’t die form the bullets

Imagine how disturbing the footage would be lol, it would probably end up in scary video compilation and people would debate if I was possessed by a demon or not.

I don’t own a gun so shooting my self is next to impossible
I don’t think I can slit my own wrists
I don’t think I can hang myself

However I fear most of this is just mental masterbation, like I’ll never act on it. My biggest tread is that I’ll be 40 one day and a 10000X more miserable loser that’ll probably die by getting shot by a nig at work.

I just realized that I am the same age as ER before he died and he completely life mogs me


NO HOPE NO CURE NO PROBLEM

You're just like me. It's unbelivable that I constantly manage to find people on here that mirror my story.

My only cope right now is that I'm just looking forward to completely lose my fucking mind until I stop understanding what the fuck am I doing, I want my body to function on it's own while my brain is basically static.

 

[Enigmaz]

That sounds reasonable. But even in a car crash you risk ending up paralyzed, losing a limb, losing more than one limb having an even more miserable existence. Not to forget hospital bills n shit.

It's good I live in a state that allows euthnasia.

 

[STAMP3D3E]

Don’t rope, go ER if you want to go out at least

 

[SuperKanga.Belgrade]

Driving is the riskiest thing you can do. Your life is at the palm of not only your hands but all the other idiots on the road. And people don't know how to drive properly. This is why I drive everyday and I hope I can at least get an instant death and not be hospitalized with broken bones.

Cars are metal death traps. Would be a horrible way to go tbh.