Story I think I had my first anxiety attack on a bus today.

[azakhan]

I had to leave my house today for some stupid exam in my school, it wasn’t that bad, all my classmates just said hello and didn’t even ask why I’m homeschooled. Of course I was brutally mogged in school by all those tall chads but I tried not to look at anyone including girls becuase it would be pure suifuel. Well I left my school and headed for a bus and the ride home was hell. I saw so many beautiful girls my age, I couldn’t believe it. I was like starving African child seeing people eat McDonald’s. So I had looked the other way and I saw reflection of myself. And what I saw was ugly. I literally looked like the virgin from virgin x vs chad y. Same face, same glasses, same posture and even the same clothes except I had a hoodie and my face is more ugly.
Maybe it was sudden realization of hopelessness but I started breathing very heavily and fucking became blind for a few minutes, I couldn’t see anything, I started panicking and sweating. When I heard it’s my bus stop I exited the bus while bumping into some guy and I sat on a bench for a few minutes. Some old lady asked if I’m okay and I said yes while in reality I was fucking terrified, I couldn’t see anything so I based all my movement on memory and sounds. Luckily I had some water in my backpack I drunk the whole thing and after 5 minutes I slowly started seeing things again.
It was really fucking scary guys I don’t even want to imagine how stupid I looked when exiting the bus.

Anyway that’s the story, worst thing is I will have to go to school and ride this fucking bus again tomorrow and the dat after, I don’t know how will I survive this I considered drinking a beer or two to relax but the exam tomorrow is math so it’s out of the question.

Sorry for my shitty English btw I’m sure I made mistakes with past perfect and past simple but my head hurts too much to correct it.

 

[startcel]

fuck man thisd is terrible

 

[azakhan]

fuck man thisd is terrible

I’m just glad I didn’t faint. I was pretty close to it now that I think about it.

 

[BummerDrummerOG]

Fuck panic/anxiety attacks tbh. Know how you feel

 

[builderseed]

sounds like a shitty bus ride. with any luck tomorrow might be easier

 

[azakhan]

sounds like a shitty bus ride. with any luck tomorrow might be easier

Thanks, tomorrow I will take my headphones and maybe music will distract me.

 

[startcel]

Thanks, tomorrow I will take my headphones and maybe music will distract me.

good idea, music was a really good distraction when i used to ride the bus to school

 

[builderseed]

Thanks, tomorrow I will take my headphones and maybe music will distract me.

hope it goes well for you

 

[GermanCel27]

I had to leave my house today for some stupid exam in my school, it wasn’t that bad, all my classmates just said hello and didn’t even ask why I’m homeschooled. Of course I was brutally mogged in school by all those tall chads but I tried not to look at anyone including girls becuase it would be pure suifuel. Well I left my school and headed for a bus and the ride home was hell. I saw so many beautiful girls my age, I couldn’t believe it. I was like starving African child seeing people eat McDonald’s. So I had looked the other way and I saw reflection of myself. And what I saw was ugly. I literally looked like the virgin from virgin x vs chad y. Same face, same glasses, same posture and even the same clothes except I had a hoodie and my face is more ugly.
Maybe it was sudden realization of hopelessness but I started breathing very heavily and fucking became blind for a few minutes, I couldn’t see anything, I started panicking and sweating. When I heard it’s my bus stop I exited the bus while bumping into some guy and I sat on a bench for a few minutes. Some old lady asked if I’m okay and I said yes while in reality I was fucking terrified, I couldn’t see anything so I based all my movement on memory and sounds. Luckily I had some water in my backpack I drunk the whole thing and after 5 minutes I slowly started seeing things again.
It was really fucking scary guys I don’t even want to imagine how stupid I looked when exiting the bus.

Anyway that’s the story, worst thing is I will have to go to school and ride this fucking bus again tomorrow and the dat after, I don’t know how will I survive this I considered drinking a beer or two to relax but the exam tomorrow is math so it’s out of the question.

Sorry for my shitty English btw I’m sure I made mistakes with past perfect and past simple but my head hurts too much to correct it.

i had my first anxiety attack when i was a fetus

 

[Uglyethnicrat]

Damn man

 

[vodkacel]

I'm sorry friend. It sounds that you had hypotension from anxiety attack.

 

[startcel]

i had my first anxiety attack when i was a fetus

your mom probably listened to metal while she was pregnant

 

[IggyCope]

Sorry man. I know how it feels

Four years ago, due cruel rejected by a crush (she manipulated me too), i started to have anxiety each tme that i looked in the mirror.

One day, it was Saturday, morning, i went to bathroom. I was in front to the mirror and then, i saw to myself really horrible. A monster. I felt a kind of repulsion what i haven't never felt again. Indescriptible. I started to swet, my legs locks and fell to the floor. It was terrible. I can't describe with words how it felt.
I had a panic attack. First of my life.

From that moment, i had to take medicine (anxiolytics and paroxetine) during six months.

 

[MuslimCell]

Tbh, stop homeschooling . Study with other people , it's ok if you fail 2 or 3 years throughout your school life .
I know it's hard but make some friends And socialise now because after school you won't have any chance .

 

[startcel]

Tbh, stop homeschooling . Study with other people , it's ok if you fail 2 or 3 years throughout your school life .
I know it's hard but make some friends And socialise now because after school you won't have any chance .

bluepill
when he is ugly everyone will hate him regardless and just intensify his anxiety

 

[azakhan]

Tbh, stop homeschooling . Study with other people , it's ok if you fail 2 or 3 years throughout your school life .
I know it's hard but make some friends And socialise now because after school you won't have any chance .

I started to be homeschooled in the first place because I couldn’t handle the anxiety in class full of people, I started to miss school and I could barely pass the first semester. Now it’s too late to come back anyway I’m finishing high school in 6 months anyway (if everything goes right). I have some friends but all of them are either from childhood or middle school.

Sorry man. I know how it feels

Four years ago, due cruel rejected by a crush (she manipulated me too), i started to have anxiety each tme that i looked in the mirror.

One day, it was Saturday, morning, i went to bathroom. I was in front to the mirror and then, i saw to myself really horrible. A monster. I felt a kind of repulsion what i haven't never felt again. Indescriptible. I started to swet, my legs locks and fell to the floor. It was terrible. I can't describe with words how it felt.
I had a panic attack. First of my life.

From that moment, i had to take medicine (anxiolytics and paroxetine) during six months.

Sounds brutal man. Psychically not even being able to see your own face in the mirror... it’s like a curse from some myths.

 

[MuslimCell]

bluepill
when he is ugly everyone will hate him regardless and just intensify his anxiety

Tbh , suffering may be the best years of his life . It's way better then ldaring in home school . School education is pointless itself , what matter most is socialising . And that's the mistake I have made . So don't do it and stop homeschool .

 

[FinnCel]

Brutal

 

[azakhan]

Tbh , suffering may be the best years of his life . It's way better then ldaring in home school . School education is pointless itself , what matter most is socialising . And that's the mistake I have made . So don't do it and stop homeschool .

I understands your point but I do have friends, they are just not from my highschool. Tbh I can’t even imagine normally going to school every day now. I would rope in less than a week. Constantly being around normies and 10/10 girls I can’t get, I’m too weak for shit like this.

 

[MuslimCell]

I understands your point but I do have friends, they are just not from my highschool. Tbh I can’t even imagine normally going to school every day now. I would rope in less than a week. Constantly being around normies and 10/10 girls I can’t get, I’m too weak for shit like this.

Dame man , you call this suffering !!!!!
True suffering is when bad things keep happening to you without knowing the cause . Being in pain while being blue pilled that's my case through college and school . But bro , you know what's happening and why everything is happening just go in that Normie world and be your best there . What's worse that could happen ? If you get beaten up you simply fight back . Enjoy every moment of it . I wish I could get back young again .

 

[boringcel]

Fuck panic/anxiety attacks tbh. Know how you feel

 

[azakhan]

Dame man , you call this suffering !!!!!
True suffering is when bad things keep happening to you without knowing the cause . Being in pain while being blue pilled that's my case through college and school . But bro , you know what's happening and why everything is happening just go in that Normie world and be your best there . What's worse that could happen ? If you get beaten up you simply fight back . Enjoy every moment of it . I wish I could get back young again .

I know I have it better than most people on this site because I have friends but it’s sometimes hard to be around them and see their success with girls and in life. Plus I usually feel even worse after meeting with them becuase they make fun of me constantly and probably only hang out with me to feel better about themselves, I have maybe two incel friends and they still mog me to oblivion. It’s still better than loneliness I will give you that but trust me I’m far from happy.

 

[wide_eyed_optimism_]

I had to leave my house today for some stupid exam in my school, it wasn’t that bad, all my classmates just said hello and didn’t even ask why I’m homeschooled. Of course I was brutally mogged in school by all those tall chads but I tried not to look at anyone including girls becuase it would be pure suifuel. Well I left my school and headed for a bus and the ride home was hell. I saw so many beautiful girls my age, I couldn’t believe it. I was like starving African child seeing people eat McDonald’s. So I had looked the other way and I saw reflection of myself. And what I saw was ugly. I literally looked like the virgin from virgin x vs chad y. Same face, same glasses, same posture and even the same clothes except I had a hoodie and my face is more ugly.
Maybe it was sudden realization of hopelessness but I started breathing very heavily and fucking became blind for a few minutes, I couldn’t see anything, I started panicking and sweating. When I heard it’s my bus stop I exited the bus while bumping into some guy and I sat on a bench for a few minutes. Some old lady asked if I’m okay and I said yes while in reality I was fucking terrified, I couldn’t see anything so I based all my movement on memory and sounds. Luckily I had some water in my backpack I drunk the whole thing and after 5 minutes I slowly started seeing things again.
It was really fucking scary guys I don’t even want to imagine how stupid I looked when exiting the bus.

Anyway that’s the story, worst thing is I will have to go to school and ride this fucking bus again tomorrow and the dat after, I don’t know how will I survive this I considered drinking a beer or two to relax but the exam tomorrow is math so it’s out of the question.

Sorry for my shitty English btw I’m sure I made mistakes with past perfect and past simple but my head hurts too much to correct it.

you went blind due to dehydration bro, but yeah this is not good

 

[theundeadburg]

I had to leave my house today for some stupid exam in my school, it wasn’t that bad, all my classmates just said hello and didn’t even ask why I’m homeschooled. Of course I was brutally mogged in school by all those tall chads but I tried not to look at anyone including girls becuase it would be pure suifuel. Well I left my school and headed for a bus and the ride home was hell. I saw so many beautiful girls my age, I couldn’t believe it. I was like starving African child seeing people eat McDonald’s. So I had looked the other way and I saw reflection of myself. And what I saw was ugly. I literally looked like the virgin from virgin x vs chad y. Same face, same glasses, same posture and even the same clothes except I had a hoodie and my face is more ugly.
Maybe it was sudden realization of hopelessness but I started breathing very heavily and fucking became blind for a few minutes, I couldn’t see anything, I started panicking and sweating. When I heard it’s my bus stop I exited the bus while bumping into some guy and I sat on a bench for a few minutes. Some old lady asked if I’m okay and I said yes while in reality I was fucking terrified, I couldn’t see anything so I based all my movement on memory and sounds. Luckily I had some water in my backpack I drunk the whole thing and after 5 minutes I slowly started seeing things again.
It was really fucking scary guys I don’t even want to imagine how stupid I looked when exiting the bus.

Anyway that’s the story, worst thing is I will have to go to school and ride this fucking bus again tomorrow and the dat after, I don’t know how will I survive this I considered drinking a beer or two to relax but the exam tomorrow is math so it’s out of the question.

Sorry for my shitty English btw I’m sure I made mistakes with past perfect and past simple but my head hurts too much to correct it.

Just buy a car, I'm driving to school because public transport is fucking suicidefuel.

 

[azakhan]

Just buy a car, I'm driving to school because public transport is fucking suicidefuel.

I would need a driver license and money for that...

 

[RopeMaXXer]

Oh you have no idea how bad it can get. From how it sounds you'll struggle to even find places to be around women once you're out of school.
Homeschooling is the worst shit you can do imo. Youll be socially dead. Same as mr

 

[Indari]

wdf waow

 

[AlexanderTheGreat11]

That was rough man. Hopefully it goes better for you the next few days. Homeschool thing probably didn’t helped you , It’s probably needed to be around people to get used to it and accept everything.

 

[Flaccid_Dave]

I collapsed a few weeks ago. Just randomly blacked out. Doctor said it's normal. I've lost a bit of confidence though. Now, not only do I have to bear the weight of women's disdain when I leave the house, but also the possibility that I might end up on the pavement face down like tramp who pisses his pants.

 

[Vermilioncore]

Brutal as fuck. Glad you didn't die bro

 

[Deleted member 18193]

Just buy a car, I'm driving to school because public transport is fucking suicidefuel.

tbh. I'd have killed myself already if I didn't have a car.