Even before the blackpill I saw myself as inferior to others and I was bullied and ostracized of course. I Had friends but I was also a depressed lil bitch. I used to get so angry and jealous over missing out on relationships, I found various ways to delude myself and cope. I found a logbook where I wrote about my sad life at 13. It’s over if you have existential dread and depression at 13. Instead of holding hands with my young and cute gf or maybe going to a party I basically vidya coped and hoped that it would happen eventually. Shoutout to my friends though for providing happy moments in an otherwise depressing life.
