When I was in high school I fucking hated being autistic! During my high school years I hated myself for being autistic, because it felt like people looked down on me or have pity on me some kind of bullshit like that.
I was lucky that nobody bullied me or hate me. All through high school was so fucking lonely. The only type of interaction I got was a hi or how u doin. That’s it.
Any other time I would try to talk to them, but it was short.
I was the guy who was just there, that most of everyone knew of. Sucky part I was a loner. I remember always At lunch time I would be at a table all by myself. Literally a whole fucking table to myself and everyone else were sitting with people.
Those tables were full, but I got a whole fucking table to myself. I fucking hated it. I strongly believe it was my autism, that I was lonely and nobody hardly talk to me. What made it worst I was in a special Ed class. Most of everyone knew that as well.
Because of the class I was in and my autism, I felt that I was worthless or stupid. I felt that I was less to everyone. I strongly believe that’s why people didn’t talk to me much, because of that.
It also affected my confidence. I had a couple of crushes in high school, but i pretty much knew I would be rejected because of my looks and my autism. Which made me shy.
After graduating high school I realized I am who I am and I can’t change that. I became less depressed, but still lonely.
You guys have any similar situations?
I was lucky that nobody bullied me or hate me. All through high school was so fucking lonely. The only type of interaction I got was a hi or how u doin. That’s it.
Any other time I would try to talk to them, but it was short.
I was the guy who was just there, that most of everyone knew of. Sucky part I was a loner. I remember always At lunch time I would be at a table all by myself. Literally a whole fucking table to myself and everyone else were sitting with people.
Those tables were full, but I got a whole fucking table to myself. I fucking hated it. I strongly believe it was my autism, that I was lonely and nobody hardly talk to me. What made it worst I was in a special Ed class. Most of everyone knew that as well.
Because of the class I was in and my autism, I felt that I was worthless or stupid. I felt that I was less to everyone. I strongly believe that’s why people didn’t talk to me much, because of that.
It also affected my confidence. I had a couple of crushes in high school, but i pretty much knew I would be rejected because of my looks and my autism. Which made me shy.
After graduating high school I realized I am who I am and I can’t change that. I became less depressed, but still lonely.
You guys have any similar situations?
