Blackpill I often wonder about my previous life

[SuperKanga.Belgrade]

With the way I feel and how depressed I get I often wonder what horrible things I must have experienced in my previous life to break me mentally like this.

Sure my life has been deeply hard and frustrating, but it feels like I'm carrying the weight of someone who's already been through this all before.

My head hurts. I feel limited and insulted. It feels like I can't think like how I want to. I can't do much of anything.

Right now I have the biggest fucking headache and I feel down. Like really down.

I just don't want to ever go through this again. I can't even describe it to anyone. I just feel constantly unsatisfied and defeated.

There is something completely wrong with my brain.

 

[SuperKanga.Belgrade]

And it doesn't help that my parents don't understand as well. Coping with religion and everything else. I find it insulting how they go to these things when they are unaware of how bad I am suffering.

There is no justification for this. This is deeply serious. I am in pain.

 

[SuperKanga.Belgrade]

I'm not even sure how I know, but I know I've had a previous life. Because the way I feel is beyond disappointment.

 

[Soystein]

It is normal to feel this way when you don't even get basic needs like pussy fulfilled.

 

[SuperKanga.Belgrade]

It is normal to feel this way when you don't even get basic needs like pussy fulfilled.

It goes beyond that though. I don't even want any of those things anymore.

I want something more then what this world could give me. I want some meaning some purpose.

 

[SuperKanga.Belgrade]

It goes beyond that though. I don't even want any of those things anymore.

I want something more then what this world could give me. I want some meaning some purpose.

It feels like I've transcended what it means to be an animal. Like I look at the way people are fucking and it just seems primitive.

I don't want to fuck. I want to be above all of this.

 

[SuperKanga.Belgrade]

I don't want to have to eat, I don't want to have to sleep. I don't want to have to make conversation about things that are absolutely meaningless and do tasks that mean nothing.

 

[Soystein]

It feels like I've transcended what it means to be an animal. Like I look at the way people are fucking and it just seems primitive.

I don't want to fuck. I want to be above all of this.

Try the buddhismpill or philosophymaxx. When I feel like shit I try to remember that life is short and I will be dead soon enough.

 

[SuperKanga.Belgrade]

Try the buddhismpill or philosophymaxx. When I feel like shit I try to remember that life is short and I will be dead soon enough.

But it doesn't feel short. It feels like it's been far too long. I'm only 23 and I feel like I've experienced all that there is to this place, and I don't want to experience anymore of it.

 

[SuperKanga.Belgrade]

I'm just so tired

 

[Soystein]

But it doesn't feel short. It feels like it's been far too long. I'm only 23 and I feel like I've experienced all that there is to this place, and I don't want to experience anymore of it.

I felt the same at 23 and I feel the same now at 39, I am really tired of waking up every day, I hope I die in my sleep every time I go to bed, I don't know how to get rid of that feeling other than getting my basic needs fulfilled which is impossible for me, I just cope and rot as best I can and wait for the suffering to end.

 

[SuperKanga.Belgrade]

I felt the same at 23 and I feel the same now at 39, I am really tired of waking up every day, I hope I die in my sleep every time I go to bed, I don't know how to get rid of that feeling other than getting my basic needs fulfilled which is impossible for me, I just cope and rot as best I can and wait for the suffering to end.

I can't imagine making it to 39 fren. You have a lot of mental strength for pushing through for that long.

 

[Linesnap99]

there is no previous life jfl ngl brutal over

 

[Linesnap99]

I can't imagine making it to 39 fren. You have a lot of mental strength for pushing through for that long.

tbh

 

[SuperKanga.Belgrade]

there is no previous life jfl ngl brutal over

Idk man. With the amount of deja vu I have, and the dreams as well something is definitely weird.

 

[Linesnap99]

Idk man. With the amount of deja vu I have, and the dreams as well something is definitely weird.

i have some kind of premonition where I see scene in my dream that I am sure could not happen in real life just random shits but after couple of days maybe months that scne plays out in real life and I remeber the dream and how it matched scene to scene. this shit is what i have never been able to understand, what is this. does it mean this happens over and over and over .

 

[Friezacel]

there is no previous life jfl ngl brutal over

 

[SuperKanga.Belgrade]

i have some kind of premonition where I see scene in my dream that I am sure could not happen in real life just random shits but after couple of days maybe months that scne plays out in real life and I remeber the dream and how it matched scene to scene. this shit is what i have never been able to understand, what is this. does it mean this happens over and over and over .

Could be, I really have no clue.