It's Over I now know why I'm so Depressed, even though I'm the same person and haven't changed

[Justanotherbloke]

It's cause when I was in my late teens, I used to live more in the present.
I simply didn't care about the future and what it may hold.
I thought that I was the 'late bloomer', which eventually turned out to not be true.
thought that I would eventually grow out of it.

Fast forward 5 Years, and I constantly worry about the future.
I know that no matter how much money I make, how physically fit I am etc, there is no prize at the end of the road.
Life for me looks empty, I don't know what I wake up for.

 

[Lonelyus]

Yes that is the agepill slowly creeping up, I am now 25 and it is eating me up because in 5 years i will be a 30 year old dude still rotting infront of his computer and all my attempts since i was 16 till i was 21 would be worthless as nothing ever came from it, Its so fucking over, I cant be saved, I am mental with brain damage now and a overthinker.

 

[fullofchagrin]

Yes that is the agepill slowly creeping up, I am now 25 and it is eating me up because in 5 years i will be a 30 year old dude still rotting infront of his computer and all my attempts since i was 16 till i was 21 would be worthless as nothing ever came from it, Its so fucking over, I cant be saved, I am mental with brain damage now and a overthinker.

i will kill myself when i'm 31, maybe one year earlier, maybe one or two years later, we'll see, but that's when i'm the fuck gone unless i somehow magically ascend