Deleted member 5089
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I'm 27 and I never truly partied. Never had any friends, never went on a weekend party, never went clubbing. Never had any fun, never went through all those hillarious wasted moments that stay with you forever, and you remember and cherish them like little treasures when you're old. I have nothing to remember... ugliness, mental and physical illness and natural inhibition/introversion/autism stopped me from experiencing this. I spent my life rotting in loneliness, sickness and misery... fuck, I just want to blow my brains out. I can't imagine how it's going to be for me when I'm forty. Having nothing to remember... teen years and early twenties were bleak and empty. This is killing me more than anything... it's truly over. It never began.