Venting I never thought my life would be this way.

[Castizo O' Toole]

In high school I was semi-black pilled but maintained the delusion that I could soon ascend my incel status and live a semi-normal life. I thought that once I graduated high school that my life would get better and I'd be much more fulfilled, but it only got worse. Literally the day I graduated I began having stomach pains and a month later had to be hospitalized for a bowel obstruction. I became a bone thin Chron'scel at age 18.

I at least had a few friends in high school, in college I have none. Life is sterile and hollow, it feels like what I'm doing is purposeless. That sounds nihilistic, but you get that way when you're unhappy. No one asks "what's the point of all this?" when they're feeling accomplished. I don't feel angry or sad, just vaguely upset all of the time. I just need copes, endless amounts of copes, because I know it's not going to get better.

 

[AnApparentMyth]

Nobody here did man. That's a brutal reality that most of us came to learn over the years. Some of us have serious physical illnesses such as yourself, some suffer from sleep apnea and relentlessness, and some never make it to see the sun again. It's a tragic reality.

 

[Sex-Starved Beast]

I don't know why I thought that things were going to turn out okay when I was a kid. The signs of my misery were all there already.

 

[Castizo O' Toole]

Nobody here did man. That's a brutal reality that most of us came to learn over the years. Some of us have serious physical illnesses such as yourself, some suffer from sleep apnea and relentlessness, and some never make it to see the sun again. It's a tragic reality.

My Crohn's is kept in remission pretty handily by the medicine I'm taking, the downside is I have to get infusions for it semi-frequently and if I stop taking it my condition will worsen. I am basically cucked by big pharma; if I don't take the meds I will likely get another obtruction and have to get a section of bowel removed.

 

[AnApparentMyth]

My Crohn's is kept in remission pretty handily by the medicine I'm taking, the downside is I have to get infusions for it semi-frequently and if I stop taking it my condition will worsen. I am basically cucked by big pharma; if I don't take the meds I will likely get another obtruction and have to get a section of bowel removed.

That's horrible. I won't compare sufferings, so I hope you can get some sort of neetbux (assuming that the meds can do that) or something.

 

[Blushing]

The first disappointing memory I have is from when I was 3~4 years old. I was a hermit in kindergarten and got beaten up, that's when I knew my life was going to be like it is now

 

[InMemoriam]

Nobody here did man.

yeah i knew right from the very beginning that my life gonna be shit

 

[curryboy420]

I don't know why I thought that things were going to turn out okay when I was a kid. The signs of my misery were all there already.

I actually thought god was real and he was listening to my prayers and that when I became older I was going to be successful. How wrong I was. I find it hard to believe in god now, because this world doesn't seem to have any divine interventions anymore. He just let us rot for as long as I've been here.

 

[poorenglishcel]

I cant think of me living this life any other way than i am doing right now

 

[psycho123]

I actually thought god was real and he was listening to my prayers and that when I became older I was going to be successful. How wrong I was. I find it hard to believe in god now, because this world doesn't seem to have any divine interventions anymore. He just let us rot for as long as I've been here.

religion is cope honestly. all these years, i seem to stray away from religion as far as i can. my parents kept telling me "god will fix this", "god will fix that", and honesty none of those beliefs actually came true.

 

[Hoppipolla]

That sucks about Crohn's.

Have you experimented with diet and probiotics and whatnot?

Lots of things can make the gut act up I think.

 

[notlovejoe]

I was also bluepilled af back in hs i thought i was gonna be slaying mad pussy i was convinced there was no chance i still be a virgin at 20, now im a fucking wizard

 

[sadlemon]

I knew it was going to turn out this way. So what i envisioned for my future was working as little as possible while getting paid and enjoying vidya, but i did not take into account the mental fatigue that piles up over the years.

Nowadays i just feel like shit and can't bring myself to do anything productive